A New Monica!
Monday, April 05, 2010
I've long been meaning to type out this journal. The weather has been amazing and its hard to get on the computer these days. Currently, I'm fighting bronchitis. If you've had it, I'm sorry. This crap sucks. I'm actually very sad I can't play outside(exercise). Anyways, enough about my sick pity party....On to the good stuff!
So I noticed that my year anniversary has come and gone. It was March 3rd. My natural reaction to this anniversary is to feel bad because I haven't lost 100 pounds and my life hasn't COMPLETELY done that 360 I was hoping for. In my new found uber positive "ness", I refuse to feel defeated by a number and beat myself up. Instead I've reflected on where I was then, and where I am now and the differences there are. In tradition of 1 year Spark Anniversaries....
A year ago....
-I was with someone who was completely unhealthy for me and who was living on my tab. This drained me financially, emotionally, and physically, and I'm pretty sure in ways I don't even know. Yea she was an alcoholic.
-I was at a job that I LOATHED going to and that gave me NO fulfillment.
-I was putting a lot of terrible things into my body not limited to mass amounts of fast food and booze
-I did NOT exercise. I blame it on 75-80 hour work weeks piled onto all the fatigue listed above
-I didn't drink water
-I was downright miserable and I didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel, much less the end of the tunnel
-I was 250 pounds...
Now I am....
-With someone who is great for me and supports me and HELPS me in every single way
-I'm at a nice job that I enjoy and gives me free time which is beneficial in sooooo many ways. I also got to pick up a little part time gig at the Zoo! Extra money without a ton of extra stress!
-I keep eating out to a minimum and I dont drink anymore. I won't say I never will, but its absolutely nothing like it was.
-I exercise and I like it. I'm not a marathon runner or anything, but the lady and I play catch, we walk the canal downtown, we play badminton, and random other fun stuff.
-My day consists of 98% water. 1% coffee, and 1%juice. I have a soda occasionally, nothing like I was!
-I'm happy =]
-I'm 218. So that's a 32 pound difference. Not 100, but also not 0. I'm happy with it. That's counting months I lost touch with Spark, and includes falling hard off the wagon.
I'm proud of all my accomplishments.
I did order the Spark. I'm finally getting around to actually reading it. I've been soooo busy this last 2 months training for work and getting into my new groove. We've also been outside a TON, so I haven't been home a lot at all. I got to take some time at work last week to ponder new goals and just a new way of doing things. I think as I change, my approach to my life has to change along with me. The Spark gave me some new insight to that, and I'm really happy and excited about my new goals!
I want to....
-Have a great job helping people or animals
-Be healthy and fit
-Build a savings account
-Pay off debt
-Finish my B.S. and pursue my Masters
To Help accomplish this...
=Fast Break Goals
-Drink 8 cups of water 5 days a week
-Save $5 a day from tip money
-10 of exercise a day outside of work
-Record food and keep a journal atleast 5 days a week
=Short Term Goals
-Lost 10 more pounds by May 29th
-Save $225 by May 29th
-Meet all Fast Break goals
I know they all sound really easy, by as you can tell by my sporadic activity on here, I have a problem with commitment. Atleast I'm not in denial right? I know that I first have to make myself accountable, and that means taking those baby steps in the right direction. These goals are also not my yearly goals. These are by all means short term(except, you know the major ones at the top haha). I'm taking it a week at a time, trying to build up to something better.
Thus far, I'm happy with the way my life is changing. Now if I could only quit smoking for good!! Darn cigarettes! Boo on you!
Thank you for supporting me and missing me in my absence. I'm hoping to keep this journal up, so yell at me if I slip =]
Spark is the best, no doubt.
Until later, tame your inner devil.