Another chapter........

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I have not been on here in a while. I know this is not an EXCUSE. I started my new job last week and things have been a little crazy lately, also, not an EXCUSE. So today I want to talk about being
1 Unrealistic
2 Making excuses
3. Being honest with myself

But first of all........
The new job is going really well and I love being home in the evenings with my family to have healthy dinners and being able to have more time to exercise. I have my own office space which is nice because as a nurse you never have your own space. I know that sounds weird, but its cool.

So my new friend at work, Tom, told me about the weekly meetings that occur on Wednesday during lunch, where the health and fitness lady from the hospital comes and talks to us about healthy choices and what we did right and wrong during the week, we also get our weekly report on calories, sodium, fat and protein intake. I was new to this meeting today and think this is going to be a good thing for me. in talking with the lady today, I have found just as I have suspected for the past few weeks, that I am not taking in enough calories during the day, so it is now back to tracking. This is going to be hard for me. I got my usual lunch today which consisted of a salad with raspberry ving dressing wtih grilled chicken on top, yogurt and water of course since I stopped drinking soda months ago. I was honest with the lady. This is my typical lunch, not just because I knew I was being watched. SO WHY HAS THE WEIGHT NOT DROPPED!!!! Am I destined to weigh 185 forever. Yes I weigh 185, I am throwing it out there. HONESTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So she asked me this, am i willing to track my calories for the rest of my life because she has found that people who do not will eventually gain weight back if not all and more. One slip here, one more cookie there. I was again HONEST and said no!!!! I do not think it is realistic to track forever. I have lost 30 lbs in two years on my own without tracking a thing. So after some arm twisting, I have decided to start tracking again and found today AGAIN that I am under my allotted calorie intake. I cannot eat the amount of food they want me too. I am not being snobby, just honest. Its too much for me, but it is also hurting me. So i am going to try and NO MORE EXCUSES.

Being brutally honest with myself this week she asked me how much I want to weigh and without hesitation I said 170lbs. Thats 15 lbs. no big deal to some, but when you have been after 6 months or more @ 180 ville, it gets a little frustrating. I am a size 14. I am beautiful, happy and feel better than ever, so I will keep going and being a little stubborn, will eventually weigh 170 lbs and through lifestyle changes that work for me, be better than ever. I will not be UNREALISTIC about myself or my body.

So spark, I will let you reguide me and try to eat more and exercise more.
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    Yes, one day at a time. Taking on bringing sodium down is a very daunting task, but it will really help if you are retaining a lot of water. I figure I'll get there eventually, but right now, I am concentrating on calories, activity and adding fruits and veggies(and I HATE veggies!) But I'm eating broccoli(steamed) and spinach(fresh) now. Good Luck, hope the weekend is going well and the holiday doesn't totally mess up your plans.
    3278 days ago
  • NURSE0730
    Thanks guys for the encouragement. I will give it a try. Todays sodium intake was absurd, do I am going to be good this weekend. One day at a time right?
    3279 days ago
    I tried exercising without dieting or counting calories or anything for two months, and lost and gained the same 6 pounds. For New year's I resolved to start taking charge and chaning my diet, not on a diet, but completely revamping what I eat and the way I eat. I signed up for a class and of course we required journalling. I've come to love it and I've lost 26 pounds in 3 months. I'm about 7 pounds heavier than you and I'm still losing. With my activity I get about 1400 calories a day, and a little more if I work out. I always had that 1200 majoc number in my head and it just wasn't enough. On days when I have trouble making my minimum, I add something fun to my day like an ice cream sandwich, or plan a meal that is more dense in calories so that I don't have to eat more volume of the diet style food and stretch my stomach out again. The last three months have proven to me that hitting that minimum is working and I'm losing an average of two pounds a week. I feel great and am loving what I can eat with a good planning system.

    Try not to fight it so much and give it a try. It's not that hard once it becomes routine and I really think you'll see that scale move. Trust that she is a professional and knows what she's talking about. I looked back on my life and realized how many times I've lost the weight only to let it slowly creep back on and not realize it until it's too late and such a daunting task to take it back off. If journaling what I eat for the rest of my life is going to help keep me from having to go through having to lose it all again, I'm totally willing. I hate having to lose 40 - 60 pounds, over and over again. And everytime I gain, I have to gain a little more to realize I'm heavy again.
    3280 days ago
  • JENN470
    Definitely not eating enough calories will prohibit weight loss. I have found that to be true in my case and many others. It sounds contradictive: eat more to lose weight - but that's how it works. I've also found that if I dont drink enough water, I dont lose. Luckily, I have figured out what I need to do and so will you! For example: here are wait my days normally look like for food: Breakfast - a Fiber One breakfast bar (120 calories, Snack - Fiber One Yogurt (50 calories), lunch - either left overs from dinner or a Smart Ones meal (usually around 250 calories, snack - Fiber One bar again (120 calories), dinner - occasionally it's a salad but a staple is cut up chicken eaten with a dipping sauce from Buffalo Wild Wings and broccoli. The calorie intake for me is around 1000 - 1200 per day but I've found this is what works for me. Keep tracking and you'll figure out what you need to do to make it work!
    3281 days ago
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