Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I have not been on here in a while. I know this is not an EXCUSE. I started my new job last week and things have been a little crazy lately, also, not an EXCUSE. So today I want to talk about being
2 Making excuses
3. Being honest with myself
But first of all........
The new job is going really well and I love being home in the evenings with my family to have healthy dinners and being able to have more time to exercise. I have my own office space which is nice because as a nurse you never have your own space. I know that sounds weird, but its cool.
So my new friend at work, Tom, told me about the weekly meetings that occur on Wednesday during lunch, where the health and fitness lady from the hospital comes and talks to us about healthy choices and what we did right and wrong during the week, we also get our weekly report on calories, sodium, fat and protein intake. I was new to this meeting today and think this is going to be a good thing for me. in talking with the lady today, I have found just as I have suspected for the past few weeks, that I am not taking in enough calories during the day, so it is now back to tracking. This is going to be hard for me. I got my usual lunch today which consisted of a salad with raspberry ving dressing wtih grilled chicken on top, yogurt and water of course since I stopped drinking soda months ago. I was honest with the lady. This is my typical lunch, not just because I knew I was being watched. SO WHY HAS THE WEIGHT NOT DROPPED!!!! Am I destined to weigh 185 forever. Yes I weigh 185, I am throwing it out there. HONESTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So she asked me this, am i willing to track my calories for the rest of my life because she has found that people who do not will eventually gain weight back if not all and more. One slip here, one more cookie there. I was again HONEST and said no!!!! I do not think it is realistic to track forever. I have lost 30 lbs in two years on my own without tracking a thing. So after some arm twisting, I have decided to start tracking again and found today AGAIN that I am under my allotted calorie intake. I cannot eat the amount of food they want me too. I am not being snobby, just honest. Its too much for me, but it is also hurting me. So i am going to try and NO MORE EXCUSES.
Being brutally honest with myself this week she asked me how much I want to weigh and without hesitation I said 170lbs. Thats 15 lbs. no big deal to some, but when you have been after 6 months or more @ 180 ville, it gets a little frustrating. I am a size 14. I am beautiful, happy and feel better than ever, so I will keep going and being a little stubborn, will eventually weigh 170 lbs and through lifestyle changes that work for me, be better than ever. I will not be UNREALISTIC about myself or my body.
So spark, I will let you reguide me and try to eat more and exercise more.