That time is approaching in So. Cal. It's spring, and with spring comes the inevitable thoughts of swimsuit shopping. Yes, I know, some of you are dealing with 35 degree weather, but it is 80 here today, and by late April, many of us will be lounging around pools and trekking to the beach.
Now, I am a girl, and regardless of any weight loss, I have bathing suit shopping anxiety. I am not going near a bikini yet. I am just looking for something cute, since I have nothing that fits now that I have lost 50 pounds. In fact, the swimsuit from last year was tossed already. I already informed my shopping accomplice, A, who is currently at law school, that when she returns there will be shopping for a new suit on her next break. After all it is her house I will spend lounging around the pool when she returns for the summer. But I have to get up the courage in the meantime to enter those dressing rooms. Online shopping I go, looking at pics of various styles.
I find a few things and something in particular that looks a bit retro by Allen B. It's here if you want a peek.
It has attachable straps, and I thought I could also make a halter strap with my nifty sewing skills. That way, I would have various looks.
Randomly, I show the boyfriend and say, "I like this."
To which he responds, "Cute, but do they have your size?" Which would have been fine, if he hadn't then added, "Because she looks small."
Mind you I have worked my butt off literally, and have gone from a 16 to a 6 in jeans, which he is well aware of. So the after thought bubble to insert after the small remark is 'and you do not because you are a cow.' Bastard.
Okay, he didn't actually say the cow part. And the 'you do not' part was insinuated. Still...bastard.
I could really understand this if, IF, I was still a plus sized gal and trying to shop in the misses section of a store. That would be a perfectly reasonable thing to ask. I would not be ticked off at all. I faced that dilemma for years, and the disappointment of them not having a size big enough. But now? Seriously?!
I may have issues with the mirror and self awareness with my body, but it has been getting better, and I certainly know what size clothes I wear. He says he didn't mean it, but that is not what it sounds like to me.
Sorry, but I had to vent. At least I know who I am.