Monday, March 29, 2010
Slowly waking up and moving forward. No it is not as fast as I would like it to be... because I am the type of person that yearns for that instant gratification." I want it and I want it now." Patience is a virtue but no one said it was easy. I have been holding myself back due to various reasons; some physical & some emotional. I will not make the same mistake again and try to do it all at once. I am not GOD. Even He took 6 days to create the world and rested on the 7th day. I can actually be positive today. Not because I am perfect; I am far from that, lol. Not because I have unconditional support at home, lol because I do not. But because it took me a long time to get unhealthy and I know it will take time to mend. I am not going to kick myself when I am down. I am learning to forgive myself and thank myself for getting back up and trying again. We all have to learn to be our own best friend. We need to learn to treat ourselves the way we would treat someone we love unconditionally! I have never done this for myself, so I am sailing through uncharted waters. However, I have faith I will succeed when I am suppose to succeed. There is no end, just a beginning. The journey is life long and it is as much emotional as it is physical. I am just very happy I have God and my spark friends to share the ride. I have comfort in knowing that even when I may feel it...I am reminded "I am not alone!"