When You Close Your Eyes What Do You See?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
When I close my eyes I see the person I want to be. Let me give you an example. The last time I went shopping I saw a beautiful dress on a mannequin. I had to have it; so when the attendant came by and offered to help I pointed out the dress. She quickly fished through the rack and brought me this huge outfit. Oh no, that won't fit, it's too big. Try it, she said. I guess she was used to folks like me. Dutifully I marched off to the dressing room reminding myself why I usually don't accept help from the attendants. To my surprise it fit. It even had the nerve to be snug around the hips. How could that be, I have lost weight, so why is my dress still that large? Quickly I took it off and exited the dressing room to be greeted by her smiling face. Well, did it fit? It didn't fit right, was the reply that came from my smiling face.
As you may guess I decided not to buy the dress and left the store immediately. I'll wait until I lose another 25 pounds before I go shopping again. Actually I have enough clothes in my closet to take me through the next 2 or 3 sizes down. As I drove home I remembered the last time my daughter visited with her dogs. One of them is an American Bulldog and although he is only a 3 years old, he is quite large. However he does not realize how big he is because his favorite seat is on her lap. He sits on her lap as if he is a small dog, oblivious to how ridiculous he looks. He started off sitting on her lap as a pup, and although he has gotten larger he has not recognized that he has outgrown his perch. I found it incredible so I took a picture of them. Now I understand him better. We see a big dog, he doesn't see that. When he closes his eyes he sees himself as a puppy who deserves to sit on the lap of his mistress. When I close my eyes I see a woman who has lost weight and deserves a skinny dress. When you close your eyes, what do you see?
Oh, by the way, here is a picture of my daughter with her puppy on her lap and the smaller (older) dog wondering why there is no room for him.