The Ticker and Me
Saturday, March 27, 2010
For the last week or so I have been seriously thinking about changing my scale goal. Docs always said "Get to 145 and I think you will be slim and healthy and look great." Liars. Large frame by butt. There is no way that all that is left is going to go away in 15 pounds. In fact, I don't even think 140, the goal I had set would do it. So where does that leave me?
Well, after serious thought and review of my measurements and the issues at hand, or rather the ones I can still grab lol, I am thinking 120-125. At 5'4 and 125, that would give me a BMI of about 21.5, smack dab in the middle of the healthy range. Seems reasonable, right? So what's the problem? I can't manage to bring myself to change the ticker!
It's like it will shift momentum, or make it all seem so far away again. It is entirely irrational. I am thinking about losing that much. I have spoken verbally with others about losing another 40 lbs. But somehow that ticker is like the final word...committing it to a form. And then I seem so far away from goal again visually. Sigh. Maybe I will just wait until I reach 140 and then switch it, breaking it essentially in half. I'm usually not this much of a chicken, so I have no idea why I struggle with this stupid ticker. I mean, it is not like I have not been successful. I have full confidence in myself. I know I can reach whatever goal I set. Its just a strange feeling, so I thought I would share. Anyone else feel like this?
As my friend always says, just keep swimming.
PS I shared a secret on the new board about staying positive.