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The mind of a 260 POUND WOMAN!!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

So, I still have the mind of a 260 pound woman even though I am now a 170 pound woman.

I see the waitress heading towards a booth in a restaurant and I cringe- then I remember- oh! I have worked my tail off and can totally fit in that booth!!

I see those guys looking at me - and I want to run away bc I know they are talking about how fat I am then-oh! I have worked my tail off and totally deserve to be looked at!!

I hear my kids asking about going to the theme park this Summer- and I dread it bc I know there is a chance that I will not fit on some if not most of the rides then-oh! I have worked my tail off and can TOTALLY ride anything in that darm park!!

I walk into a clothing store and automatically look for the "womens" section then-oh! I have worked my tail off and don't have to wear plus size any longer- I don't even have to wear the "I can barely fit into regular sizes size-xxl?"

I need to shop for a bathing suit- you know a MOO MOO with a skirt then-Oh! I can wear a normal bathing suit- infortunantely, I will not be seeing a bikini probably ever again, but I can wear a NORMAL bathing suit- FINALLY!!

I don't have to pull and tug at my clothes

I don't have to dread going on hikes

I don't have to make my fiance stop bc his "legs are way longer than mine so he is making me walk too fast"

I don't have to look at him and wonder what such a flippin' hot man is doing with me- being overweight- bc I noe match him- I am finally arm candy!!

**I know that this blog must seem that I am hung up on myself, but you know, when you have spent most of your life with 0 self confidence and then you decide and actually follow through with the fact that you are going ot lose weight- I think that you deserve to be PROUD or stuck on yourself- if only for the time being!!!

**I am MICHELLE HUNTLEY (soon to be) I am a RECOVERING FOOD ADDICT- I have been sober for almost 1 year and have lost almost 90 pounds with my own sweat!! Please know that if I can do this, anyone can do this!! Bekka!!!!!! WE are doing this girl!!!! WOOT!
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    Awesome blog! You are doing great and you totally deserve some "bragging time!" Keep it up!
    2888 days ago
    Awesome post. Thank you for sharing.
    2923 days ago
  • KYMMC3
    THANK YOU for sharing that!! I am SO looking forward to when I can feel that way too!
    2935 days ago
    What a wonderful post... thank you... makes me more determined to pick up the slack!
    WELL done... you have not only lost 90 lbs... by looking at your pics I think that you have also lost 15 years!!!
    2935 days ago
    Congrats--I really loved this post--I have been working really hard and am looking forward to seeing the pay-offs you describe here. So happy for you!! emoticon
    2941 days ago
    I am so completely proud of you! And i can totally relate to the whole mindset issue. ...it can be really hard to retrain your mind and think like a thin(er) chick.

    Congrats on your weight loss.....and for being PROUD of it!
    2941 days ago
    This is awesome. Seriously.
    2941 days ago
    Congrats on your weightloss! You worked hard and now get to live your life to the fullest! Way to go! I can't wait to be able to feel the way you do now. =D

    2941 days ago
    I am so glad you are able to change your way of thinking and reminding yourself you deserve all the good that came with your weight loss! I am around the weight that you started at, and I hope when I get to 170 I will be able to change my way of thinking... I worry about that often. Congrats again!! :)
    2949 days ago
    This so motivating! It is such an amazing feeling to love yourself...inside and out. You go girl. Congrats on your success! emoticon
    2949 days ago
    Yes we are girl!! I could cry reading this I am so damn proud of you!! XOOXOXXOXOXOOO my life would not be complete (or as happy) without you in it!!! YEAAA WOOT WOOT!!!
    2949 days ago
    That was so motivating to hear as someone who is 250! I feel a lot of those insecurities at times! But you are a DONE girl and thats amazing!!!
    2949 days ago
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