Back to balance…

The mediafast turned worse than planned – internet did not work for the whole weekend and yesterday I spent 1,5 hours on the phone with support without any solution Took the computer and the modem to town and the shop there – found out that a button was turned the wrong way on the modem. Finally it worked… and now I will try to stay balanced and not use the internet for mindless time-spending…

My hundred health days are really shaky, I am really on-off emphasizing the ”off”. But today is another day and another glory to come… I am trying very hard to like myself in spite of all my failures… it is not easy. An OA-friend of mine has written a book (novel) that got FANTASTIC reviews and I am really glad for her. Looking for the book in the bookshop yesterday I stumbled over a title called ”status” and a hasty look told me that the theory was that status equals happiness… which means that happiness without performance is impossible… and I am trying to reach harmony and balance by letting go of my fixation with performance… This will have to be thought about for a while… I did not buy the book since I have three books on my shelf that I have to finish first. My friends book was not on sale yet. I am afraid that it is ”deep” and I prefer to read easy-peasy stuff without too much ”cultural” language or deep feelings… but since she is a loved OA-friend I will make a true effort