I don't really know where to start...
Maybe a BIG THANK YOU is a good place.
When I wrote yesterday's blog it was all about me and my daily "I hate my life" pity party. Don't get me wrong...I still hate my life...most of it anyway, but there are glimmers of hope that I cling to...starting with my sons and all of you.
To be honest when I read Elizabeth's comment:
"Go back and read all of your blogs.
Pull up your big girl pants and
do what you know you need to do.
What you are doing is not working on any level."
I felt my face go red and I got angry thinking "what a b*%#h"...I felt like I'd been slapped. A slit second later I thought "GOOD GRIEF! SHE'S RIGHT!"
I didn't/couldn't read my blogs then but I did make and eat dinner instead of drinking then I took the dogs for a walk and had a chat with myself (the dogs were too busy enjoying themselves to listen ;)
Yes, life sucks a lot of the time but to some extent it is what I make it. I know I can't change my husband, who is absolutely the most negative person on the planet, and it's not going to be easy ignoring him or my own negative thoughts/feelings and faking being positive until I really am...but I am 50 years old and it's about time I did pull up my big girl pants and stop blaming everyone and everything for my misery. Isn't it Dr. Phil who say's "and how's that working for you?"
This morning I did read all my blogs. Wow. I know I've always felt this way but to have it in writing, with dates going back to last June, it was an eye opener. It seems the only time I "say" anything is when I'm sinking in the black hole. I know I spend most of every day in the dumps but I do have the odd good day...and I never mention those. This too needs to change.
Another comment I read on one of my posts was from Helen. She said:
"Wake up each morning knowing that you have been given a new chance, put a smile on your face, give yourself a little pep talk because you know you can do this and get your day started with a happy thought, and thank God you have this new day. Before you go to sleep each night, thank God for the day you have just had and give yourself a pat on your back for a job well done...that you did the best you could for that day."
I don't know about God, as I've never been to church, but I do know about Goodness so I think I'll start there.
I know there are many people in the world in a worse situation than I am and although it's easier to ignore that fact when I'm having a grand ol' pity party I will do my best to snap out of it...aka: pull up my big girl pants...and get on with living my life as positively as I can.
I want to
again for being such an
group and if I could I'd give you all big
I hope you all have a great week.