**The following is a VERY embarrassing subject for me but I have decided to put it out there for information and hopefully to help someone else who may be going through what I have been**
Why have I been AWOL from Spark lately? I know some of you have missed me as I am getting questions and loving friends are asking where I am...well here is why..so bear with me as I attempt to explain my absence..
I have not been feeling well for a long time. Several years as a matter of fact. And my being my bull headed self I always just figure this is my lot in life and I am to deal with it..that is all a normal process of aging.
"After all Joyce you ARE 54 now!"
So, I finally got really tired of not feeling good and dealing with the whole health "issue" that I have been dealing with. I went to the DR and had the "exam" , he then sent me to a specialist who did that whole "exam" thing. again ..then scheduled tests...and we did that whole "test" thing (and it was not nearly as embarrassing as I thought it would be) and then I find out that when your past 50 these DR's think you need a colonoscopy so he sent me that DR..where I tried my best to NOT throw a fit and be rude about that cause I did NOT want that done and did not want to even talk to him about that.
Well--yesterday the test results are back and I was back at DR #2 office for the decision. I am having surgery to correct the problem. I told him and the colon DR that they needed to co-ordinate their efforts because they were only getting this one "shot" at me so they better work together...well DARN IT..they are! I will be getting the colonoscopy and then the surgery all on the same day!
So..ok..we all need the colonoscopy after age 50 especially we women because colon cancer is the second leading cause of death in women over age 50...(they said)...still it does not make it an easy subject to discuss, talk about or even think about...but there it is.
Now for the surgical procedure..my bladder pro-lapsed and I leak urine at the slightest thing and also have constant cramps and pain in my lower belly...
SO..this is NOT BECAUSE I AM OVERWEIGHT..the causes are many and varied such as..
Hereditary factors, giving birth to large babies, straining from lifting and carrying heavy items over your lifetime, weight can be a factor but not the only cause (so don't let a DR tell you that!!)
The mindset I had that this was somehow my fault for being FAT was all WRONG!
This was my kids and my momma's fault! LOL (I knew I could blame this on someone else!!) Oh and that 17 yrs of being a rural mail carrier did not help either!!
Anyway--ladies--DO NOT live with this..DO NOT think this is your "lot in life"...DO NOT be embarrassed to talk to your DR about this, have the tests done and then get it fixed! It is a pro-lapse. I have no muscle left to hold the bladder and urethra in place.
It is called hyper-mobile --insert really big word here--
Fancy language for no muscle left to hold things in place.
The procedure will be a small incision where they will place a "sling" inside from hip to hip and under the bladder to put it back into place and hold it there.
(they will also do that colonoscopy thing too :(
The DR said he wanted me to stay down and be "waited on" (HIS WORDS) for 3 to 4 weeks after that as doing to much will just make the surgery of no value...since I want this to work and be of value to me..I will be acquiring a bell to summon my husband at a moments notice to fluff my pillows and bring me treats...
Oh yes..I do so plan to be waited on...***insert an EVIL laugh here***
So--there it is..why I have been AWOL...why I have been so hesitant to talk about this to ANY ONE..and now..I hope and pray that since I have put myself out there and written this "embarrassing" blog that some how some way it helps someone else to not be embarrassed to go talk to their DR and get something done to fix a very fixable problem!
I look SO forward to feeling good again and not hurting and not feeling like I have a HUGE neon sign over my head that says "she pees her pants! To NOT having to wear "protection" and always being afraid that other people "know"
Even WITH the colonoscopy...I am glad I went..I am glad I am doing something about it..and I am glad that soon I will be all better!
So..I may be AWOL a bit more but I will try not to...but if I am just know I am getting fixed and being waited on and I will be back!!