Friday, March 19, 2010

As I sat here adding my nutrition, I started thinking about the fact that I am starting over with trying to lose weight yet again. I know I'm a strong woman because I've had enough trials in my life to prove my self. So, why do I keep having to start over? Why do I feel so worthless and such a financial drain on my family. I don't have the answers to these questions. I know I DO NOT want to look like a beached whale all my life! I've been doing the best I can to make good choices for the food I'm eating. Most of the time, I practice portion control if I am having something high in carbs. So what is wrong with me! Why is it that every time I start to make progress, something goes wrong? These past few weeks, it's been dealing with fluid retention. I've gained over 20 ponds of fluid and am having a devil of a time getting it off and keeping it off! I can't stand very long because of generative disc disease in my spine. But I do still manage to keep my house fairly clean. Today is just one of those days that I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle! But, all that said, I'm still NOT ready to give up!!!! emoticon
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  • JIBBIE49

    I'm reading the BECK DIET SOLUTION book, which isn't a "diet" but how to THINK like a THIN person. (Got a copy from the library.) I recommend it to everyone as she helps you learn to deal with sabotaging thoughts.


    1. I’ll look better.
    2. I’ll be more attractive.
    3. I’ll be able to wear a smaller size.
    4. I’ll be able to wear nicer clothes.
    5. I’ll like what I see in the mirror.
    6. I won’t feel so self-conscious.
    7. I’ll be healthier.
    8. I’ll be able to exercise without discomfort.
    9. I’ll live longer.
    10. I’ll feel better.
    11. I’ll have more energy.
    12. I’ll be fitter.
    13. I may actually have romance in my life!
    14. I’ll like myself more.
    15. I’ll feel like I’ve achieved something important.
    16. I’ll be MORE CONFIDENT.
    17. I’ll have more self-esteem.
    18. I’ll be less self-critical.
    19. I’ll be more outgoing.
    20. I’ll do more things!
    21. I won’t have to listen to anyone commenting on what I’m eating.
    22. I won’t have anybody bugging me re: my weight.
    23. It might help my career.
    24. I might make friends in the vicinity.
    25. I might get a new love life.
    26. My back won’t hurt any more.
    27. People won’t make snide comments behind my back.

    Cravings are usually more emotional and physiologically intense than hunger. The moment I decide I will ABSOLUTELY NOT EAT cravings will diminish.

    When I experience a craving my attention gets fixated on food. It is important to remember that the experience of eating goes far beyond the actual time that food is in my mouth - It includes everything that happens afterward: feeling weak, guilty and out of control and gaining weight. In the past when I tried to diet, I gave into cravings, and I felt upset with myself.
    2905 days ago
    Carol thanks so much!!!!! I think I may have found the exercise solution. I love to dance and just found "Just Dance" for the wii it's more than just stepping like DDR
    2954 days ago
    Hi Lotzalady ,
    I too have made the thousandth try to lose weight. I know what to do, I know all of the things that work. SPARKPEOPLE is the best I have ever seen. I only just started but already I am finding that I can make positive changes . You too can make the positive changes, you have had lots of practice and practice makes perfect. You can do it . As for the water retention, try very hard to cut back on the salt, read your labels, even the "supposed" lean meals have lots of salt. Also drink your 8 glasses of water every day. Eventually you will flush out your system and get back to normal.
    Exercise is so key to this plan & it feels so good both physically and mentally to get up and move. I was actually able to put my socks and shoes on today without getting all out of breath . That is a huge accomplishment for me. Get some friends and family involved in your success , take them for a walk , make low calorie cooking a group activity. There are so many great recipes on the web-site.
    Have a beautiful weekend and enjoy your successes.

    Carol from Calif.
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    2954 days ago
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