100 healthy days
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Yesterday it was 100 days to midsummer eve – a holiday that is as big as christmas and easter in Sweden. When I noticed I took is as a ”sign” to go for a health project… not overeating and trying hard to stay motivated.
So – yesterday was day one. Experience tells me that the first day is the worst, follow by one-two days that are also hard but not as hard as the first one. Then comes days or even weeks of harmony and serenity. And then I start to obsess over my weight loss and make wild plans for the future. I start to try on clothes that has been to small and dream about the day I will have to buy new ones…
So a hundred day project is not a good idea. Still, I am desperate to break my bad habit of overeating at nights. I have tried a lot of things lately – eating dinner late, eating a lot of carbs at dinner, stop at 6 am (pm?) have extra fruit in the evening, drink a lot of herbal tea, doing crochet, going to bed… I have succeeded when I have been away from home or doing the crochet.
Yesterday the craving got overwhelmingly loud after 9. I fought it and planned to go to bed. Felt the failure closing in – and got saved by something I did earlier in the day. Had a meeting with a woman that I am constructing some projects involving female entrepreneurship with and I told her about my ”100 healthy days” and that it was supposed to end at midsummer… and I knew yesterday evening that if I ate something I would probably not make today without overeating either and then the project would have ended before it even started… that I told her stopped me from eating yesterday.
Hopefully this evening will be easier.
I shopped a weight belt yesterday – I am not heavy enough to sink in the water so I have to carry weights when scubadiving. That was an embarrassing experience at my diving course, since the weightbelt I was supposed to wear didn´t fit. I went into the diving store and asked them if they had weight belt for fatties like me and they said that they made them so they could make any length. So I asked them to make one two decimeters longer than standard and they did – no extra charge. I also asked about the swimsuit for tropical waters – do they make them for big women like me? And they do and it is not as expensive as I thought either. I will try to get money to buy one in may – I will not get one for swedish waters because I don´t plan to dive here except when it is very warm. But it encouraged me that there are suits that can fit me.
Going into a store where everybody is young and fit and ask for things that fit a fatty is hard – but the fact that I am 57 helps, because I have no time or patience to be shy about it. Earlier in life I would probably just have asked for a fitting belt and they would have to find a polite way to say that I would have one exclusively made because of my body size.. now I ask for the real thing and we can be very practical about it.
There were five people in that store when I left and they all looked at my departure and I am very sure that there were some comments about me after I have left. I am a little curious whether they were fun, nice or scornful, I prefer to think that they were nice… I really don´t care because I do want to be comfortable when I practise diving and now I got a weight belt that fits me so I am happy!
Thanks for reading.