I never thought I'd be happy to stay the same.....
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
LOL. I decided Wednesday would be my weigh in, because of scheduling making weekends too hectic. So I weighed this morning, and I am the same weight as I started 2 weeks ago. Which is ok. I'm running alongside the wagon, not quite back on yet, getting used to logging food and walking, keeping in the back of my mind that I'm starting a program again, etc. I had a little scare there that I gained 3 lb. all in the space of a couple of days, but now I'm back where I began. And I'm happy with that.
I have to get back into this slowly--don't know how to explain it, but I know how my mind works. If I ALLOW myself to get all gung-ho about it, I will do too much, too soon, and either hurt myself or get overwhelmed or burn out. I HAVE to make myself incorporate it slowly in order to make it MINE. Does that make sense to anyone but me? If I don't do it slowly, it's just a diet and I'll eventually quit again. If I incorporate it slowly and allow myself to adopt it into my LIFE, hopefully it will become part of my life and not just a fleeting thing.
Got to work on my psycology here, ppl. ;) I know this about myself. I hope. I'm looking back on last year, trying to figure out why I quit sparkppl when I loved it so much, and I was losing weight! so I won't make the same mistake again.
I know it's going to take time--a lifelong committment. Like my marriage. ; ) For richer, for poorer, good days and bad, fat days and thin. Committing to myself for the rest of my life to take care of me. LOVE, ME.