Fighting my inner demons

I am probably my worst enemy. I have regressed and I need to pick myself up and try again. I climbed on a ladder and was scrapping off wall paper which was not an easy task. I said to myself, I have been waiting for my hubby to do this so long, let me just do it. Well the good news is that it involved some sort of movement and I got a lot done. The bad news is that I missed a step and hurt my shin pretty bad. Could have been worse but its still frustrating. Now Monday I go to dr for blood results that I rather not hear about. I feel like "Alice" who fell down the rabbit hole. Strange
happening like my words are confused or I am clumsy more than usual. Arguing with hubby and have less patience with kids. I am tired..really tired physically and mentally. I have to fight myself to become more positive.
Heather