I suck at updating things... but I have something to talk about now
Friday, March 12, 2010
So I went away in my own little world for quite a while. Frustration of how my life was going, which included my weight. Hence why I neglected this site.
I am a big Jillian Michaels fan. I went on a search for her new book, Master Your Metabolism. Changed my life and view on food. For instance, yes, most people know eating clean is good for you, you should it, blah blah blah. I was slowing transitioning to doing so, but kind of dragging my feet. What really clicked for me in her book was WHY it's good for you and HOW certain foods will work for you.
For the past 11 years, I have fought constant fatigue to live "normal". I have been treated for depression (very extensively), hypothyroid (even though my numbers were fine), hyper-somnia, been "prescribed" a vitamin list, and allergies. I've had numerous blood tests and gone through a couple sleep studies. Throughout EVERYTHING, my fatigue persisted. Constant brain fog, illness from exhaustion after a "big day", poor concentration, limited memory, because of all of this, I was fighting depression as well. Many doctors didn't get that I was depressed BECAUSE of constant fatigue, not that I was fatigued FROM being depressed. There's a difference, I had been truly depressed before, which was different from what I was feeling after I was done with my treatment. I've been told I'm stressed, and after I graduate college, I'll be better. Nope. While I have no doubt I was stressed in college, that wasn't the cause of my fatigue.
This constant fatigue really affected my life. I lacked motivation, esteem and concentration. I went through an additional semester of college, because I had failed 3 classes because my fatigue got too much, I would literally feel sick from exhaustion getting ready for class, so I would go back to sleep for a few hours. That's when I knew I couldn't work even part-time and finish school. I did graduate, but by the skin of my teeth. I was interested in my major, I just couldn't retain enough info to make the grades I wanted.
I thought I finally had an answer about a year ago, when I went for an allergy test, and found out I was very allergic to cats. Out of all 60-something things they tested me for, cats was my only reaction. And I have 2 cats that I would never entertain the idea of getting rid of. So I figured I'll get an air filter and keep allergy meds on hand to deal with it. While I did have some allergic reactions to my cats (itchy throat, watery itchy eyes, stuffiness), taking the allergy meds were only making me sleepy. Just what I needed, huh? More tiredness. I just figured I'll get through it somehow.
Return to present year. I was doing my usual surfing on internet boards, when I came across a post about Jillian's new book and how it was a good read. I went out that weekend and tracked one down. I sat down and read the whole afternoon and evening, finishing the book. Lightbulbs lit up as I read. Holy crap, this all makes sense. NOW I realized the importance of clean eating. I immediately put it into effect, since my husband and I did want to start eating healthier anyways, and now I have real reason to do so.
I will admit, we are not at 100% clean eating. I'd say 80-90% though. I haven't cooked a box meal in so long. I enjoy "from scratch" cooking. Making my own gravies, not those packet mixes, just in general putting together what I want, spiced how I want it, and most important, filled with WHAT I want, and not chemical processed crap.
I read this book at the end of January, and immediately saw number results on the scale (coupled with exercise). A couple weeks later, I got busy with a new dog, and didn't go to the gym as much, but I did go for walks 4-6 days a week for about a month. Even with not as much exercise for that month, my eating habits kept those numbers from going back up. Now, since the beginning of this 2010 year, I have lost 12 pounds, and this is due to implementing this eating habit change. I had tried before to lose weight, religiously tracking calories on here, going to the gym for 45 minutes to an hour 3-5 days a week, cutting back on portions, nothing has stuck as long as this has. Doing what I just mentioned, I lost a grand total of 5 pounds over the year that I tried. With results like that, it's easy to get frustrated and give up.
Here's the BEST thing that changed in my life from reading this book: My fatigue story I bored you all with earlier? It has SIGNIFICANTLY lowered. I rarely take a midday nap anymore. I get more done around the house. I have motivation, and drive. It's not completely gone, but it's the best it's been in 11 years, and I imagine once my system gets flushed of all the crap that has probably built up, I'll be feeling great. In just the short time of putting this into habit, I now feel sick eating processed crap.
Here's a brief look at what I'm eating, because of reading the book:
Breakfast - 1 cup of oatmeal and 1 cup of milk *or* 2 scrambled eggs with a roma tomato diced in it and a slice of whole grain bread.
Lunch - 5 oz of chicken and 1/2 cup of brown rice (and if I have it on hand, 1/2 cup of peas and carrots)
Snack - varies. I have eaten 1/4 avocado and a big handful of walnuts. Or a wedge of laughing cow cheese spread over a sliced tomato. I'm still having trouble consistently getting this snack in though.
Dinner - 4 oz of fish and potatoes/cauliflower on the grill, or tofu & marinara over spaghetti squash and veggies (there are other dinner recipes I have, just wanted to give a little look into the general idea)
I try very hard to keep carbs off my dinner plate, and I do try to eat every 4 hours, but no eating after 8 pm. And water, water, water. One of the weekend days, I'll flex on my food (in moderation) to just take a little break.
Well, that's my update today.