My Sabotager ... My Biggest Supporter ... My Lover .. My World ... all one person
Thursday, March 04, 2010
i've seen alot of ppl posting about their sabotager or who brings out there munchie monster and while responding to one i realize who my sabotager is .. my spouse ...
sadly my spouse ... brings out my munchie monster ... all day until 5pm i do great than i have to really focus, we've been living the same life this whole time than I just up and change so I have to understand that it's up to me to keep this change ... he's supportive and all but just doesn't understand with offerings of icecream and chocolate everyday cause he loves me, and he loves to see the happy look i have in my eyes which is easily accomplishable with comfort food :P
he is my biggest supporter without him i couldn't do this, but we are to stuck in our routines cause we love eachother, and have lived with this love together and have developed bad habits together ... he was healthy before he met me, i'm his sabatager tooo :P
I should explain, we do everything to make the other happy, we are the perfect couple we make love almost every day, we almost never fight (2x since oct 2005 both ended before the day was over) ... we both have the same good qualities and bad qualities, we always have a blast together and are considerate of eachother to the point where it's cute annoying ( you first no you first style) we can sit around and do absolutely nothing with no money and no entertainment and still have a blast together!
and he knows i love food, not any crap but am a connoisseur of excellent food! and indian food which he cooks all the time for me! and he knows how happy good food makes me .. it has become a habit, eating out ordering delivery not just regular delivery pizza but like exquisite delivery breakfast too! and throughout our whole relationship hes always got my gifts of food! ad it has always made me happy!
He has always supported me and loved me the way i am, he once told me ( when i was worried about the fact that i was getting fatter) that it was because i was happier and leading the good life, and it's true before i was broke and starving and skinnier ... he also told me that even if i became a walrus he would sleep on the edge of the water just so he cans ee my beautiful smile every morning ... my heart melts .... as does my motivation ....
he is so supportive that it's unsupportive, i need him to kcik my butt and stop bringing me chocolate but he loves me too much to do it, so t's all up to me!
and he loves me the way I am and WORST OF ALL HE DOESN"T ACTUALLY WANT ME TO LOSE WEIGHT!!! maybe like 10lbs max ... but he wants me to be happy !!! How can I stay Motivated while he eats chips and i exercise, and he couldn't care less whether i do or dont!! though he's all for the benefits of being fit and such he's just a big gal kinda guy :P which is also putting a lil strain on the fact that i want to loose weight and he wants me big :P Although he says he'll still love me whether I'm a walrus at the sea, or a skinny rat in the mall :P
We also ALWAYS have a blast together playing video games or going to parks or shos and stuff and when havign a blast it's sooooo easy to reach over and eat what he's eating ... but it's all up to me unintentionally sabatoegr and munchie monster or not!
So In love we both fostered bad habits, which i want to kick ... but he just brings out the carefree happy me to much!!! He is my lover, he is my world, he's my biggest supporter and he's my sabatager all wrapped into one neat lil package!!!
well i feel a bit better now that that's off my chest, i don't really know what to do though .... realising something doesn't make it any easier ...