Feelin' Groovy

Thursday, March 04, 2010

After an amazing weekend (it literally changed my life forever) and two trips to the sushi bar that is a minute's walk from my new apartment I am feeling really great. I am not moved in yet, but the prospect of living and working and going to church and the grocery all within a 5 minute walk is incredibly exciting. The Y is a mile away (and that is going to be my c25k starter) and with this one little weekend my life became so much less complicated.

It's a long time coming. In my life I have made decisions that led to messes and I didn't have the equipment to extract myself from them as easily or arrogantly as I had rushed into them. But now the tide has turned, FINALLY.

It has taken a long time for me to accept them as bad decisions and not just bad luck or God punishing me for some obscure and unknowable reason (so lame, so lame) and just turn around and go the other way -- you know, sometimes you spend so much time and energy on proving you didn't make a mistake? That is just hubris, out-of-the-box seven-deadly-sins pride, but it becomes an obsession to some how make a silk purse out of a sow's ear.

Of course nobody knows anything about that kind of stubborn foolishness but me, right?

Anyway, all the sudden my life is showing all the signs of having made a different decision and wow, it feels good. It doesn't feel like I have horrible luck or God is punishing me anymore -- interesting how that worked, isn't it?

Now I feel as if I am "blessed and highly favored of the Lord" and that ain't just words to cover up a crap reality. And I am diggin' this, really diggin' it.

And I am not shoving food in my mouth like I am starving or storing up for winter.

Wow. Humans are complex creatures. Who can sort one out?

I was having no luck, but I am so glad that I found Someone who could.
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    I must confess that I am one of those such stubborn creatures & man it takes a long long (this could long) long time to change some the habits associated with this behavior. emoticon I am so glad that you found a place smack dab in the middle of your apartment! emoticon emoticon emoticon Good luck on your daily walk to the Y & God bless you! oh thanks for the add. . . Dee emoticon
    3034 days ago
    WHoohoooo! Thanks Harper369, and thanks ITGIRL74! Buddies! I have Buddies!
    3034 days ago
  • ITGIRL74
    I'm really happy for you. And so excited that you're moving back to OP. I have a pretty good idea of where you'll be based on your description, and I live really close to there. We're going to be Y and C25K buddies!
    3034 days ago
    sounds fantastic! I am so glad things are going well for you emoticon emoticon
    3034 days ago
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