Well, this week I have not been around very much.
No, I didn't go anti-social. But I did finally get laid off on Monday in IBM's latest round of job cuts in the US.
I was not alone - about 2,500 others were laid off with me on Monday. Nor was I the first - IBM had laid off several thousand people in 2009 and at the end of 2008 (estimates are as high as 35,000 total, although I think that is an exaggeration and it might be closer to 25,000 or 30,000.
So I certainly can't take this personally....and frankly, given that I came into IBM with an acquisition, and am one of the last 200 or so employees out of an original 1,600 that came in with that acquisition, my shelf-life was pretty decent.
That said, this is still no less terrible. I have a house, a mortgage, and bills to pay...and I have no husband with a second income that we can limp by on for a while. It's all me. And I will be in some serious financial troubles within about 4 months unless I find a job. Unemployment insurance will not even cover my mortgage, let alone utilities and other bills.
So...that was the 'dark cloud' in this blogs' title. And it is big. And VERY dark.
So what is the 'silver lining' then?
Well, I am finding myself reaching out not for the bag of cookies...but the treadmill as a way of coping. I don't WANT to eat. Not hungry. All I want to do is run. And run hard. Run out the stress.
So in that one way, the 'old me' is BACK. The me that was the runner, biker and triathlete 15 years ago. She's back. And I am very glad about that. And the thing is that no matter what, I will have running. If I lose the house and end up in bankruptcy...I'll still have a pair of running shoes. Running is MINE...and Corporate America, which has long been in the habit of raping my life on a fairly regular basis (it's scary how much overtime I have put in while in the accounting profession over the years - nights, weekends, holidays, whatever...and then they do crap like this), can't take that from me.
Lost 4.6 lbs on the scale at Weight Watchers tonight. Part of it was all the work I'd put in up until Monday...and I guess part of it is due to the stress and lack of appetite I've had since Monday. Plus sticking to my workouts and doing them extra hard to cope with stress.
Yeah...what is happening now is some serious sucktitude....but at least I am reaching for the running shoes instead of the bread machine.
Sooo....does anyone know of a place for CHEAP and healthy recipes????
And do any of you Atlantans know of anyone in need of a good accountant?