Progress . . . Plateau . . . Regress.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
I stayed away from Spark for about a week, logging on only to update my status and create my food plans which I didn't always follow. Occasionally I would scan the blogs or messages from my Spark friends. It seemed as if I was on my way out and was risking all the progress I had made. Somehow I maintained my weight and would congratulate myself for not gaining what I had lost. I was truly busy, but that should not be an excuse. With my lack of participation in Spark, I started eating mindlessly, grabbing what was available when I felt hungry.
Last Tuesday was one of the busiest days I had in a long time. As I hustled from one appointment to the other I managed to eat 2 donuts, 3 slices of pizza and a Wendy's fish sandwich. Although I did not log my meals that day, I have not forgotten my transgression, and by the next day I was aware that I was out of control. It has been said that it takes 21 days to create a habit, well it takes one meal to break it, because suddenly I began to crave the fish sandwich, and it took eating 2 more, with 2 orders of french fries for me to realize that I must regain control of myself and I better do so quickly.
As time went by I recognized that my clothes were getting tighter. With more hope than fear I stepped on the scale and noticed that I had gained 4 pounds since Tuesday. Although I was not surprised, I was disappointed and decided that it was time to return to Spark in earnest. I had made great progress, then plateaued and I was beginning to regress. I felt sad that I had let myself down. I knew better. At the same time I was grateful that it was not too late. Everyday brings with it a chance to begin again, and I am taking advantage of that chance. I refuse to succumb to defeat and I have no intention of regaining the weight I had lost. God has planted a desire for dramatic change deep inside my spirit, and I will achieve my goals. I know that it may sometimes seem difficult, and there are times when it may even seem impossible, but achieving my weight loss goals and living a healthy lifestyle is worth the effort. I'm back and ready to win.