Starting over again...again
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Well here we go again folks. I am starting this life style change over again. I have gained back some of the 33 I had lost. I am back up to 280 which means after almost 10 months of so-so work I have managed to lose 20 lbs. Very frustrating I must say. My biggest downfall....letting stress run me to the chocolate and other bad snacks instead of Jesus. Actually let me be honest I go for it under any circumstance. Celebration, sadness, boredum, it doesnt matter I just LIKE to EAT!!! I am going to begin the SCF study again to see if I can realize the root of this problem. I pray I find the answers and can finally fully surrender this to God. I pray I learn so I can be pleasing to him in this area of my life. This to me is no worse than someone who is addicted to drugs, has been convicted of it, yet still chooses to run to it when times begin to get tough or the craving come back. I kicked drugs almost 11 years ago. If I can over come that with the Lord's help I can surely over come this...it is just a matter of true desire to do so. I am over 1 year smoke free. Next year I hope to say I am over 1 year glutton free. If you are reading this and in the future come across my face during any posts or searches PLEASE lift up a prayer for me. I realize that it will only be by God that this will happen. I am a food addict and I need the Master to deliver me from it.