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Experiencing Counterfeit JOY!! Stress= Food????

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Happy Hump-Day Diva's!!!

So as you all know I have been missing a part of Cassandra. I have been missing my zest for life. I have to be completely honest to have my Joy in my life.. This will be long b/c it's more so for me to be honest & just vent my feelings... So today I let it out..

Yesterday I ate bad, I ate about maybe 40 plain M&M's, I just stopped counting at one point. I made like 3 trips to the candy jar at work. Then I ate about 8 almond kisses. Then I went to grocery store when I got off & bought some sugar wafers, now I have eaten these in nearly 2 years (ate 7 of them). However, I just ate whatever I wanted. I was sooooo consumed by stress at work & I once again turned to emotional eating. I know I don't like how I feel after I eat a lot of junk- So Why Do I Eat It????

I asked myself "What Are You Missing? What Are You Searching For?" The truth is I keep on letting counterfeit joys consume me b/c the truth is I felt only momentary Joy from those foods but at the end of the night I was upset & disappointed with myself. I realized that I am just going thru the motions of life & not living my life b/c I am letting food control my life. I know that my Stress level at work for the next 5 months is going to be at a 20 on a scale of 1 to 10! So if I know that every February thru June my work load will be extremely demanding & stressful, how can I make this year different. How can I find JOY in the Midst of Chaos, In the Midst of Stress???


Every year during Feb-June I manage to gain about 10 pounds from work stress. I am seriously trying to find a way to not let Stress Control My Life & then use Stress as a Reason to turn to Food.. I am tired of the- Counterfeit Joy of the Cookies, of the Cake, of the Chips, of the Junk Food!!! I want to be at Peace in the time of the Storm... I don't know how long it will take me to get there but I am going to try my best to find my way there...



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  • PEPPERLEAH
    You'll make it through this. Recognizing that the immediate gratification you may feel from the quick fix goods will fade, means you are well on the way to overcoming that. You will find an alternative to those foods, and you will reach your goals. Don't let those times of temptation get you down. Stand up and stomp out those negative feelings. You are strong, and you can do this!
    4129 days ago
  • LOSLUWOM
    Hopefully you can find some healty substitutes (exercise, drink water, call a friend... ) for your emotional eating. Just try to control the urges instead of letting them control you. emoticon
    4129 days ago
  • XAVTAY
    Diva,

    I have this problem of emotional eating too! I eat when everything is going wrong but somehow we can get threw this. I have started to write when I want to eat. It has helped me but for those times when I am out and I can't write I repeat the 23rd Psalm because the Lord is my shepherd I shall not want..... Also, I love the motivational jar suggestion and I am going to try that too.
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    BLann
    4129 days ago
  • SHANTODD420
    Hi there good luck on the emotional eating and stress of work right now. How about keeping sugar free gum or mints in a jar. Or just taking a short walk to get away for it for a few minutes. Hang in there and it will get better.


    Shannon

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    4129 days ago
  • RAVEN227
    Cassandra, hugs to you....I am sorry you are dealing with the stress of work...

    I love the idea lightingrunner made...instead of a candy jar a motivational jar...I am going to do that as well....

    I am wishing you the best. I will check on you later today...

    Peace and Blessings friend

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    4129 days ago
  • TIUANAP3
    Just hold on! Keep reminding yourself it is about getting back yourself and that missing mojo! How about taking a kick boxing or boxing class? I found that I actually like beating the crap out of that punching bag during year-end and tax season. It really is a wonderful stress reliever! emoticon
    4129 days ago
  • WORKINGSTIFF
    I like Lightningrunner's suggestion of a motivational jar. I used to visit a YMCA that had a jar of "Scripture Vitamins." Slips of paper with short scripture readings on them. I thought that was a great idea. I think I'm going to type up some motivational/scripture saying and put them in a jar right now. I'm having that kind of week myself (and it's only Wednesday).

    I don't know what kind of work you do, but is there a better way to do the job at hand? It sounds like during the stressful time you know what to expect. As I always tell my boys, "Work smarter, not harder."

    You are right on in trying to figure out what is at the bottom of the stress, not just keep eating to gloss over it. Keep getting your exercise to exorcise the demons.

    Keep up the fighting spirit! You will succeed!
    4129 days ago
  • PAIGESMAMA
    I am glad you are seeing that you turn to food when stress hits. Just keep working on it and you will get this worked out. Life isn't easy and we need to make the most of it. I am here for you when ever you need me. On spark or personal email.

    Teena
    4129 days ago
  • LIGHTNINGRUNNER
    Not sure if this is possible. But instead of a candy jar - how about a motivational jar - stuff it full of motivational sayings and positive statements about yourself and your life. Grab one of them and read it instead of candy. If that doesn't work what about taking a lap around your floor or your work area. Moving might just help....Take Care and Take lots of deep breaths.
    4129 days ago
  • no profile photo SHANNONSTILLS
    Have to agree with SAVEDBYGRACE95, do not allow it to over take you. Let it out and find a healthy alternative.
    4129 days ago
  • PURPOSEPOWER95
    I hear you...even though I am a SAHM stress is stress. Seems we are all stressed. Emotional eating kinda sneaks up on you. It did me yesterday. I was doing fine until I posted on a team that I was in range for a couples days. Maybe I jinx things?? who knows?? I think I'll just toot my horm a little more slowly. Sounds like you need a break. Deep breathing really helps me. Sipping green tea, going out doors for some freshair. Journing, or when over whelmed SCREAMING. You think they'll hear you if you go to the restroom and scream...If so yell lightly but all means let it out. I know you will get your mojo back soon. Hang in there emoticon .
    4129 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/24/2010 8:16:24 AM
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