Tuesday, February 23, 2010
The last few months have been tough for me. Hypernating is more like it. Eating, sleeping, and working when I had to, but other than that.....nada.
Today is a new day. I wanted to get up early enough to eat breakfast, and take the dog outside like I do. Ate breakfast, read the Bible, went back to bed for awhile. Showered, walked the dog, and did a few weights. Not much, but a starter.
I have felt like a failure in church, cause I quit going. Felt like I was being pushed to do what I was not, a teacher. Besides that, the breakup of my boyfriend 6 months ago, left me feeling ugly, I suppose, unwanted. I have been seeing myself age too, which doesn't help. So I ate, the only thing I liked to do. I would just stay home, warm in bed, and play games on my laptop..
Today, I am choosing to make changes. No one said I have to, just me.
I want to stop and enjoy this moment, not the past and what happened, nor the future, which hasn't gotten here yet. True happiness is in the journey, not in the destination. Help me Lord to continue to see what each moment holds, the right now. "For you have not given us the spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." 2 Tim 1:7. We can do this.