Happy Birthday Lucy!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Today is my 38th birthday and I feel amazing! I feel alive, healthy, greatful, happy and all those feelings along the the same line.
I realized that I am no longer afraid of getting older. I remember my 36th birthday, oh I felt so old, like something on a store shelf that was way past it's "sell-by" date and needed to be pulled off the shelves urgently. I felt dusty and rugged and lifeless and hopeless. I hated all the cheerful young people calling to wish me a happy birthday, as if they were mocking me or something. I felt really old.
I guess this is new math - 38 is less than 36, because I feel younger at 38 than I did at 36. They say you are as young as you feel, well, I feel twenty! I feel like I have my whole life ahead of me and I can't wait to discover and explore and enjoy all that life has to offer. I can't explain this feeling but it is a wonderful feeling.
I know I feel this way because I have taken control of my life. I am living a healthier, more active life. I have de-cluttered my life and I am more focused on things that are important to me. I am giving the best of me to my family and I feel proud.
So I'll savour this feeling and keep doing the things that I know have contributed to my feeling this way.
Happy, healthy birthday Lucy!