All Talk And No Action...
Friday, February 19, 2010
I'd say that pretty much sums up how I've been for most of the month of February. No excuses, just pure laziness. I know I've been in a funk since my birthday... and I think it was just one of those things where I was wondering what life has in store for me. I really want to have a family some day... and even though I am in no rush... it is something sometimes I panic about. But the thing is, I am not even happy with myself, so there is no way I am going to put myself out there for someone else. I need to wait until I am put back together, and my confidence is back. I truly believe I *know* how to do this, and I understand this is something I have to work towards, but for whatever reason, I just stopped. The only thing I can think of is pure laziness. I started to think I wasn't exercising because I was feeling depressed... but now that I have exercised just two days in a row... I'm already feeling better. So maybe I was feeling depressed because I wasn't exercising. What a concept lol.
So no more talking... I've done enough of that over the past couple months it is time for action. 2 days down, a lifetime to go. I am going to visit my grandma from march 1st - march 4th... normally we would be out to eat all the time, gallavanting around town (she lives in Las Vegas mind you)... but this time will be different. I told her we can go out once, maybe even twice, but no more of this lunch and dinners OUT everyday. She is being so supportive, she is always my biggest cheerleader. She is working on losing weight herself, so I know she gets it. She even told me to bring my exercise DVD with me. Normally I would have the mentality of 'it's vacation, so I should be able to eat and do whatever I want', but this time is different. But enough of my rambling, hopefully from now on I will *do* what I know I need to do, and it will reflect in my weight loss ticker;)