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Creativity seems to be my key

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Stress continues in unimaginable doses, with new flavors at every turn. I've discovered if I sculpt, or write for even a tad bit, I ground. I think straighter. I make better choices with my food. I desire to exercise, like creativity opens my window and makes me want to go outside and breathe in those flowers instead of just view them from the windowsill. Clay is keeping me sane. One day at a time with all the challenges, but creativity takes me into a world of timelessness, even if I have to have a timer on it. There's something about timelessness that puts me in touch with the bigger picture, takes me out of myself, out of my body, out of now - but not in the drugged way that tv or food does. TV disconnects me as does too much food. Too much food makes me very aware of my body feeling full - comforted - secure - solid, way solid. TV and video games is like my mind is drifting - sorta sleeping, but without the benefit of dream journeying. Creativity disconnects me from the mundane tasks of life and swirls me into the dance of delight in being alive. Feeling so deeply the delight of life makes me want to respect my chance to be in this body - regardless of it's challenges, it makes me want to make this body the best I can so I can experience even more delightful adventures. So many of my health challenges are weight related. My back has been really bad lately -- yeah I had a surgery, yeah I overdid it, but if I didn't carry this extra 65 pounds, my back wouldn't be working so hard every day to carry ME! Same's true of my right knee and left ankle. I could dance a whole lot better with less weight, and dancing is another key for me, so I'm trying...a walk here, a dance there, some clay, some blogging, some weight lifting, some to get back to a routine...and maybe a challenge! emoticon
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    I totally agree. It's taking that time to do something for me - that's actually meaningful. I mean, I can veg out on the TV or on the computer, but it will be an empty time (if that makes sense). For some reason, the other things - that I totally love to do - take more work. Why? Not a clue.
    Keep reaching for the creativity.
    I am trying to do something each day - even if it's small and sometimes it's tiny, but it's something.

    3349 days ago
    You obviously need some "me" time to recharge your batteries. I hope you are able to get out and walk the baby in this warmer weather. Winter is always tough to be shut inside so much. Spring is coming! Be strong and stay positive! emoticon
    3351 days ago
  • F8CONE8
    Glad to see you back blogging. You are right a little creativity can really go a long way to reduce stress.
    3351 days ago
  • OPAL50
    I'm happy for you that you discovered that creativity is your lifeline...hang on tight with both hands whenever you can if even for those short moments. emoticon Great blog. emoticon emoticon
    3352 days ago
    we all need a release of some sort i am so glad for you that you have found yours in a none eating ,undistructive way. emoticon i think that is emoticon and the way you discribe your feeling over your sculpting is emoticon you will have to post some pictures of your work in a blog.i am so pleased for you.keep up the good work you lucy one.sorry you had to have surgery and i hope you have recovered from husband had his operation today.any way tae care of yourself and keep in touch.karen emoticon
    3352 days ago
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