Creativity seems to be my key
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Stress continues in unimaginable doses, with new flavors at every turn. I've discovered if I sculpt, or write for even a tad bit, I ground. I think straighter. I make better choices with my food. I desire to exercise, like creativity opens my window and makes me want to go outside and breathe in those flowers instead of just view them from the windowsill. Clay is keeping me sane. One day at a time with all the challenges, but creativity takes me into a world of timelessness, even if I have to have a timer on it. There's something about timelessness that puts me in touch with the bigger picture, takes me out of myself, out of my body, out of now - but not in the drugged way that tv or food does. TV disconnects me as does too much food. Too much food makes me very aware of my body feeling full - comforted - secure - solid, way solid. TV and video games is like my mind is drifting - sorta sleeping, but without the benefit of dream journeying. Creativity disconnects me from the mundane tasks of life and swirls me into the dance of delight in being alive. Feeling so deeply the delight of life makes me want to respect my chance to be in this body - regardless of it's challenges, it makes me want to make this body the best I can so I can experience even more delightful adventures. So many of my health challenges are weight related. My back has been really bad lately -- yeah I had a surgery, yeah I overdid it, but if I didn't carry this extra 65 pounds, my back wouldn't be working so hard every day to carry ME! Same's true of my right knee and left ankle. I could dance a whole lot better with less weight, and dancing is another key for me, so I'm trying...a walk here, a dance there, some clay, some blogging, some weight lifting, some stretches...now to get back to a routine...and maybe a challenge!