Thursday, February 11, 2010

Hey Beautiful Diva's!!!

I took off today & tomorrow to get my mind together. I really needed the mental days. For a while I felt like I was falling off a cliff with no control with no one to catch me when I hit the ground. So I have cried for days & it's okay to cry but now I want my life back & I want CONTROL!!! I am tired of letting Food Control me!!!

Today was a rough at the beginning of the day but I worked out twice this morning. I am working on gaining CONTROL Over My life. I have been out of it for a while & just been an emotional train wreck. So today I decided that I was going to go get me an journal not for logging my food or exercise but just for my feelings & thoughts.

So what I lost Control but I going back to get Control!!! I do feel better. I passed the grocery store today & thought about my favorite chocolate cake but instead I didn't stop, I just went on home.

Tomorrow I will be creating a positive self image collage in my journal of positive thoughts, positive self images & positive words. I look forward to doing something constructive.

Well let me stop b/c I could just go on and on!!


"No Longer Letting FOOD CONTROL ME But Instead We Will CONTROL FOOD!! "

Have a wonderful night Diva's!! emoticon
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    Keep on keeping on. Those emotions huuumm something else sometimes.
    4141 days ago
  • JODI912
    As others have already said, you are certainly not alone in how you've been feeling. I've been in a similar place myself lately and am trying to get back on track. I appreciate your sharing because it makes me feel like I'm not alone either. Hang in there.
    4141 days ago
    A big congrats for walking by the chocolate cake. 1 step at a time. emoticon
    4142 days ago
    emoticon Thanks for sharing with all of us because it just shows how REAL you are. We ALL struggle in some area and we all need encouragement. YOU can do it my spark friend!
    4142 days ago
    Dearest Darling Cassandra,
    I have been where you are...well not exactly but maybe our stories are similar... in order to be there for the most important precious people in your life your sons you have to take control and know if you dont take care of you ...who will..?You took a huge step...the first one. we as moms and women put ourself last on our to do list. I was so moved by your blog...If it gives you any comfort you are not alone. I have found so much support and I come here often to scream out feelings rather than stuff them and its ok.
    I just wanted to say hi and hang in there many of us are cheering you on!
    4142 days ago
  • ALL4ME2010
    I can so relate to what you are saying. I will NOT let what I eat define who I am. I have found journaling to be a great resource for working through things and to also help take my mind off of the food. It seems to me that the more I tell myself I can't have it, the more obsessed I become with it. So, I try not to focus so much on it. For example...I can have chocolate in the house and never touch it....but tell me I can't have it...and that is all I can think about. It is so frustrating, but you CAN do this. You will make it through step at a time. One hour at a time. Whatever it takes. Good luck to you and God bless.
    4142 days ago
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