Wish this wasn't the case, but I'm still in a severe amount of pain whenever I stand up. It seems to have moved now, though, focusing itself on my left-hand side, which leaves me slightly worried.
The first time something like this happened was in 2004, a couple of weeks before I was due to leave for college. I woke up in the middle of the night needing to use the bathroom, and I literally couldn't even sit up in bed. Every time I attempted to, there was a searing pain in my left-hand side, on my back, right at my hipbone (or where I think my hipbone would be if I could feel it through the layers of fat), and I ended up hobbling, bent over, to the bathroom while my parents called an ambulance for me.
By the time the ambulance arrived, I could stand up enough to get downstairs, but then as soon as I was in the hospital, I couldn't stand up to get out of the wheelchair they'd provided. They took X-Rays and poked and prodded, and gave me painkillers, and they still couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.
At that time, I weighed 357lbs.
The second time it happened was after I'd left college and moved back to Ireland and had gotten a job. I lived up near Dublin on my own, in a top-floor flat with no phoneline and no internet line.
So when I woke up, again in the middle of the night needing to use the bathroom and found myself unable to stand up, I had to crawl to the bathroom, do my business, and get back into bed, sleep until morning and call my boss to tell him I couldn't make it into work and could I please have a few days off, and then had to call my father to drive from the Midlands up to Dublin, to come up to my flat to help me down the stairs so that I could go back to my parents' house and my bedroom in their house so that I wouldn't be alone in case I needed to go to the hospital again.
I didn't need to go to hospital. Bed rest and painkillers and liberal applications of Deep Heat helped.
But nobody's ever been able to tell me what, exactly, is causing this.
Now, whenever I know there's something wrong with me, as in the case of my bipolar disorder, I tend to head to Doctor Google and do some research. Especially where medication's involved. The only thing I can really find - and what I'm sure one or two of you have mentioned - is SCIATICA ( en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sc
The symptoms - the severe pain, and the fact that my hip has a bad tendency to go numb if I'm upright for too long, the fact that almost every time, it's generalised in my left-hand side and not all-over - tend towards this, and I'm really hoping that this isn't the case. I mean, if it was the diagnosis, at least there'd BE a diagnosis, and therefore some help. But I'm not sure if it'd be better to have sciatica or have it be something else, but my doctor in Ireland had said "nipped nerve" but didn't go into any greater detail than that, and even at that, he was just guessing.
So I'm hoping that when I go to my doctor tomorrow, when I tell him my symptoms and throw out the word "sciatica", that he will listen, and hopefully I can get something done about this.
See, I was enjoying the fact that I could do that thirty minute walk through town without getting winded or my hip going numb or my back hurting. Last Friday, I barely made it into the mall before I had to sit down and pretend to send somebody a text message. I couldn't walk around Asda when I was done with that because it hurt too much to stand up straight.
Whatever this is, I just want it treated. I want to be able to stand up and walk and do my exercises again, because it's amazing how much I was actually ENJOYING my little aerobics sessions, and I want to get back to that.
And to everybody who has commented with their support so far: thank you, so much. It means an awful lot that y'all are thinking good, get-better thoughts in my direction. Thank you. :)