Opening brown envelopes today
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
I know that I am not the only one but it´s hard to remember when I am in the middle of it - I have not been opening brown envelopes for a while. That was a common behaviour for me some years ago but thanks to program and a lot of work I have become much braver in facing unpleasant facts. But the strain from my fight with ex has once again made me an ostrich - the envelopes has just piled up.
But today I received a large sum of money which I earned september last year and today I have opened them all and paid them too - it´s scary to see all those money disappear and I have no idea where more is coming from - nothing doing right now, jobs booked at the end of february but the money for that wont arrive until end of march... Life is a bit too exciting for the moment but opening those envelopes has released a lot of energy!