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Opening brown envelopes today

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

I know that I am not the only one but it´s hard to remember when I am in the middle of it - I have not been opening brown envelopes for a while. That was a common behaviour for me some years ago but thanks to program and a lot of work I have become much braver in facing unpleasant facts. But the strain from my fight with ex has once again made me an ostrich - the envelopes has just piled up.

But today I received a large sum of money which I earned september last year and today I have opened them all and paid them too - it´s scary to see all those money disappear and I have no idea where more is coming from - nothing doing right now, jobs booked at the end of february but the money for that wont arrive until end of march... Life is a bit too exciting for the moment but opening those envelopes has released a lot of energy!
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    know how you feel, dread spending the money but feel better when checks are in mail! emoticon
    3637 days ago
    Good for you! I recently just went through and organized all of my financial documents... it can be so scary.
    3639 days ago
    Hi MP. Money from work in September? OMG you're so patient to get paid!

    All my $ goes to bills too right now. Hoping and hoping to come into some money soon. Keep your fingers crossed for me please. I'll do the same for you! :)

    Relationships can upset the whole balance of life! LOL!

    3639 days ago
    Good luck on your journey!
    3639 days ago
  • SBATES63
    I completely understand the excitement after facing down something you fear, whether it be opening brown envelopes, speaking in public or trying something new. Trust in and work your program and you will be OK.
    3639 days ago
    Good for you. Have you read any Pema Chodron? She talks about facing fear, and the energy that it releases. You just proved her point.
    3639 days ago
  • AZURE14
    Hang in there. I bet it will all work out fine. I've been through 2 divorces... so I know how very tough it can be.
    3639 days ago
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