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vlcd #5...my binging is resting but the obsession is not!

Thursday, February 04, 2010

i am so afraid. i cant stop thinking about sweets and carbs. before this diet.. i was binging so much like out of control like hitting 3 drive thrus in a row then the grocery store. so bad. my clothes stopped fitting and i was getting ready to grow out of the bigger clothes i had to buy very recently. i know that there is something going on inside of me that needs to be addressed. i am in so much pain right now thinking about what is to come....at least i will get to be smaller while i am dealing with it.....hopefully my strength and reliance upon god can last long enough to get me through this.it has been one week tomorrow since i have binged. i am going to go to a eating disorder therapist i think. i need help.
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  • SUGIRL06
    I know how it feels to think about food all the time! It might be a good idea to see someone just so you can talk it out and maybe find out what's really going on. I agree with Dawn in that it might be a good idea to concentrate all that energy on the nutrition tracker? Keep your mind focused elsewhere! Good luck!
    ~Ang
    3082 days ago
  • DAWN788
    i can relate completely even though i'm not binging at the moment, my mind is always on food. I've jumped on the diet/weight obsession bandwagon since I was 17 and now it's just second nature to me. New diet food products, books, magazines, you name it, i have it or am interested in it. It's a terrible and isolating 'hobby' and one that just doesn't lead to any happiness and ultimately will make you heavy, no matter how 'good' you are, because with so much focus on food, you're just bound to start binging. Right now I'm turning my obsession to the nutrtion tracker and religiously tracking everything i eat. It's working out though bc i focus on the nutrients and trying to meet all my requirements (except fat bc i don't think i'll ever be ok with consuming the amount it tell me to). i know i should see someone too, if you go to someonoe specificially for ED, let me know how it goes. Good luck.
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    3082 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/4/2010 11:59:32 PM
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