vlcd #5...my binging is resting but the obsession is not!
Thursday, February 04, 2010
i am so afraid. i cant stop thinking about sweets and carbs. before this diet.. i was binging so much like out of control like hitting 3 drive thrus in a row then the grocery store. so bad. my clothes stopped fitting and i was getting ready to grow out of the bigger clothes i had to buy very recently. i know that there is something going on inside of me that needs to be addressed. i am in so much pain right now thinking about what is to come....at least i will get to be smaller while i am dealing with it.....hopefully my strength and reliance upon god can last long enough to get me through this.it has been one week tomorrow since i have binged. i am going to go to a eating disorder therapist i think. i need help.