Just a thought or two
Thursday, February 04, 2010
My birthday is on Saturday. I'll be 33. I'm not nervous about turning a year older, but what I've been noticing myself doing this week is thinking about how anxious I am about the food that comes with birthday's and how I'm going to handle it. Plus, it's Superbowl weekend and I have a party to go to. I know the healthy choices I need to make and want to make, but I also know that when I'm with friends and family I tend to fall into the category of "follower." I know that my body and metabolism and goals are different than everyone else's, which consequently means that my choices get to be and are different too. But at the same time, I find myself getting annoyed that I can't just be one of those people who doesn't have to think about what they eat or how much of it. And then, especially when I think about celebrating my birthday, I think about enjoying the day and being that person for the day....the one who doesn't think about what I probably shouldn't be eating. Then, I know full well that the next day I'll get up and kick myself over and over for overindulging. I feel crazy!!! I really believe I can find a happy medium in all of this for the weekend, and then translate that happy medium into the rest of my life. I don't get to stop living because I'm trying to be healthy and lose weight, rather my life experiences will expand because I'm living better and making healthier choices!
I know all this! Just why, oh why does it have to be so hard sometimes to remember to apply it every day!