Day 3---I finally did it!!!
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
This am when I got up I got in the shower, dressed and took off for my errands and to go to the GYM. I was anxious but I parked my car and went in. There were 2 older people there, 2 school bus drivers on the treadmills, a young guy with a puppy and the guy who owns the gym named Jay who is also an insurance man. He and I chatted for a few minutes and then I told him I wanted to sign up for the month. He took my check for $30 and then showed me how to adjust and use the various machines. I thought he was extremely optimistic as to how many repetitions I could do and how long I could stay on the bike but I told him I would try. I spent 5 minutes on the bike and 15 minutes on the other machines doing one set of 5 on each machine. I did it without crying and even walked back to my car. Quite an accomplishment for someone as insecure as I am. Now I can stand in front of 300 people and speak and not be bothered but when I have to do something physical, I am scared to death--that I am going to fall or make a fool of myself or get hurt. Or probably that I'm going to be laughed at and feel shamed as I have so many times before. You know I was always the last kid to be picked when choosing sides............
I did go home to assess myself before going to the grocery store. I guess to make sure I was okay.
Then proceeded on with my day. It was a very satisfying day. I feel braver since I accomplished that goal today. On to tomorrow.