Today was a day to test my resolve.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

It seems like when I have my mind made up to do something, life has to make sure I really want to follow through. True to form, I blogged on my resolutions yesterday and today....well....today basically stunk.

I woke up this morning with intestinal cramps and a killer headache, I stayed in bed until noon but didn't really sleep as I was too uncomfortable. I tried to meditate and ride the waves to calm down the discomfort.

I finaly got up to watch my Soap Opera and check the mail, including my Spark mail and remembered yesterday's blog and how upbeat I was about my exercise plan with built in days off in case I needed them. I certainly didn't feel like exercising today. I'd rather have my teeth drilled. But, then the same questions hit that have hit several times before when I started an exercise program. Sure....I have a headache etc, but is it really bad enough to keep me from exercise? Will exercising make things worse? If I do exercise, is it because I am in all or nothing mode? Would I be doing what is right and caring for myself by taking the day off or by doing some form of activity anyway? What is the right thing to do?

I never really know how to answer these questions. If I don't exercise, it is all to easy for me to give up. I've been there and done that many times over. If I do exercise, am I listening to my body? I ran through a checklist. Maybe the headache is from not eating. I had a teaspoon of peanut butter. I didn't feel like eating. I also made a pot of coffee and took a tylenol. Perhaps caffeine would help the headache. The abdominal discomfort had died down. . I didn't feel like I would injure anything or cause more distress by doing my 10 minute minimum of cardio. But I just didn't feel like it.

I sat and nursed my coffee until mid afternoon while pondering these questions; and finally decided I may as well do some in home walking. Dr Phil was on so I decided to walk until the next commercial. Funny thing, I got interested in Dr Phil and before I knew it, a half hour had gone by. I didn't feel any worse nor did I feel any better, but if I could do a half hour while engrossed in TV, maybe I could do the rest. I wasn't doing anything strenuous...just moderate activity walking at home.

I did my 60 minutes. Its now going on 10pm and I still have the headache. Its not as intense but it is still there. The abdominal discomfort is gone. I finally made myself some dinner after not eating all day. And I am still questioning whether or not I should have exercised. I really don't know if I did it to take care of myself or if I did it because I felt like I HAD to. Would I have kicked myself if I hadn't? I don't know. I just don't know. But part of me is glad that I did.
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    Oh Kerry I so love you. You write so many times about what is happening to me and the things I usually do not blog about but probably should.

    I have struggled with the should I/ shouldn't I exercise question all my life. And like you and so many others I have never regretted a work out I did but have so many regrets for workouts I did not do.

    Life is to short to fill it with regrets they say and from what I read you do not have anything to regret.

    I am so proud of you. YOU ROCK GIRL.

    Love Nims
    4124 days ago
    Well, there are lots of terrific comments from our friends, so I don't know if I can add anything. I do believe in listneing to my body, but I also believe that exercise relieves tension (which causes headaches), increases blood flow (which eases headaches), floods me with endorphins (which eases headaches) and improves my outlook on life. So I tend to exercise unless I'm injured or truly ill (fever, etc.)

    Good for you for keeping your promise to yourself! emoticon
    4124 days ago
    the post before mine uses my philosophy too. i look at it like brushing my teeth or taking a shower. i dont LIKE to do those, but i wouldnt think of NOT doing them. its scheduled in. period. if i'm too sick to shower ok then i'm too sick to exercise. if a doc tell me i cant ok thats valid. but otherwise....
    good for you.
    Take care of yourself..i hope you are feeling better!!!
    4125 days ago
    Listen to the part of you that is glad you exercised. emoticon When I started this journey, I told myself that I had to look at it as a Job. Many days I didn't WANT to get out and go to Curves. But I asked myself if it was a job, was I sick enough to call in to work? Of course the answer was always No. And I always felt better after I left Curves than I did when I got there.
    emoticon I have never regretted a workout that I did. But I have regretted almost every workout that I missed.
    Keeping my fingers crossed that you will feel better tomorrow
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    4125 days ago
    Oh No!!!! emoticon The dreaded double post emoticon
    4125 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/29/2010 12:58:45 AM
    Whoever heard of a triple post? Sorry about that. I don't know what happened. emoticon
    4125 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/29/2010 12:56:38 AM
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    i totally get the should i/shouldn't i exercise dilemma. so many times the workout is just what i need to get my mind off how i feel. that being said, i am so proud of you doing your walk - emoticon i hope you are feeling 100% healthy real soon. love ya donna
    4125 days ago
    That's a question I struggle with all the time too Kerry. I think if you exercised and it did not cause you discomfort, then it's a good thing. I'm glad you talked yourself into it and I'm glad you didn't get any sicker...
    4125 days ago
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