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Today was a day to test my resolve.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

It seems like when I have my mind made up to do something, life has to make sure I really want to follow through. True to form, I blogged on my resolutions yesterday and today....well....today basically stunk.

I woke up this morning with intestinal cramps and a killer headache, I stayed in bed until noon but didn't really sleep as I was too uncomfortable. I tried to meditate and ride the waves to calm down the discomfort.

I finaly got up to watch my Soap Opera and check the mail, including my Spark mail and remembered yesterday's blog and how upbeat I was about my exercise plan with built in days off in case I needed them. I certainly didn't feel like exercising today. I'd rather have my teeth drilled. But, then the same questions hit that have hit several times before when I started an exercise program. Sure....I have a headache etc, but is it really bad enough to keep me from exercise? Will exercising make things worse? If I do exercise, is it because I am in all or nothing mode? Would I be doing what is right and caring for myself by taking the day off or by doing some form of activity anyway? What is the right thing to do?

I never really know how to answer these questions. If I don't exercise, it is all to easy for me to give up. I've been there and done that many times over. If I do exercise, am I listening to my body? I ran through a checklist. Maybe the headache is from not eating. I had a teaspoon of peanut butter. I didn't feel like eating. I also made a pot of coffee and took a tylenol. Perhaps caffeine would help the headache. The abdominal discomfort had died down. . I didn't feel like I would injure anything or cause more distress by doing my 10 minute minimum of cardio. But I just didn't feel like it.

I sat and nursed my coffee until mid afternoon while pondering these questions; and finally decided I may as well do some in home walking. Dr Phil was on so I decided to walk until the next commercial. Funny thing, I got interested in Dr Phil and before I knew it, a half hour had gone by. I didn't feel any worse nor did I feel any better, but if I could do a half hour while engrossed in TV, maybe I could do the rest. I wasn't doing anything strenuous...just moderate activity walking at home.

I did my 60 minutes. Its now going on 10pm and I still have the headache. Its not as intense but it is still there. The abdominal discomfort is gone. I finally made myself some dinner after not eating all day. And I am still questioning whether or not I should have exercised. I really don't know if I did it to take care of myself or if I did it because I felt like I HAD to. Would I have kicked myself if I hadn't? I don't know. I just don't know. But part of me is glad that I did.
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  • NIMAWEYGH
    Oh Kerry I so love you. You write so many times about what is happening to me and the things I usually do not blog about but probably should.

    I have struggled with the should I/ shouldn't I exercise question all my life. And like you and so many others I have never regretted a work out I did but have so many regrets for workouts I did not do.

    Life is to short to fill it with regrets they say and from what I read you do not have anything to regret.

    I am so proud of you. YOU ROCK GIRL.

    Love Nims
    4124 days ago
  • CATIATM
    Well, there are lots of terrific comments from our friends, so I don't know if I can add anything. I do believe in listneing to my body, but I also believe that exercise relieves tension (which causes headaches), increases blood flow (which eases headaches), floods me with endorphins (which eases headaches) and improves my outlook on life. So I tend to exercise unless I'm injured or truly ill (fever, etc.)

    Good for you for keeping your promise to yourself! emoticon
    4124 days ago
  • NIGHTSKYSTAR
    the post before mine uses my philosophy too. i look at it like brushing my teeth or taking a shower. i dont LIKE to do those, but i wouldnt think of NOT doing them. its scheduled in. period. if i'm too sick to shower ok then i'm too sick to exercise. if a doc tell me i cant ok thats valid. but otherwise....
    good for you.
    Take care of yourself..i hope you are feeling better!!!
    Hugs
    Holly
    4125 days ago
  • LJCANNON
    Listen to the part of you that is glad you exercised. emoticon When I started this journey, I told myself that I had to look at it as a Job. Many days I didn't WANT to get out and go to Curves. But I asked myself if it was a job, was I sick enough to call in to work? Of course the answer was always No. And I always felt better after I left Curves than I did when I got there.
    emoticon I have never regretted a workout that I did. But I have regretted almost every workout that I missed.
    Keeping my fingers crossed that you will feel better tomorrow
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4125 days ago
  • LJCANNON
    Oh No!!!! emoticon The dreaded double post emoticon
    4125 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/29/2010 12:58:45 AM
  • LJCANNON
    Whoever heard of a triple post? Sorry about that. I don't know what happened. emoticon
    4125 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/29/2010 12:56:38 AM
  • no profile photo CD346639
    i totally get the should i/shouldn't i exercise dilemma. so many times the workout is just what i need to get my mind off how i feel. that being said, i am so proud of you doing your walk - emoticon i hope you are feeling 100% healthy real soon. love ya donna
    4125 days ago
  • DEBULACLARK
    That's a question I struggle with all the time too Kerry. I think if you exercised and it did not cause you discomfort, then it's a good thing. I'm glad you talked yourself into it and I'm glad you didn't get any sicker...
    4125 days ago
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