Chapter One: For the second time
Thursday, January 28, 2010
I have read through the book already. I pretty much had it completely read in 2-3 days. But now I am going over each chapter slowly and absorbing all the information I can. Like so many that Chris mentions, I start out with the greatest of intentions, then fall short a day and think to myself "I've failed again; why bother?" Where did this attitude come from? When I was a teenager, I was very active. Heck, I would even take my "boom box" outside and turn it up loud and just dance for hours out there...dancing and singing my heart out. I used to take hikes up in the woods behind my house and sit up there for hours just writing my poetry. I miss those days. I have always set goals for myself, but they were so unattainable that I always failed at reaching them. Since starting SparkPeople in November, 2009 I have learned to set more realistic goals that are attainable...if I just stop making excuses and work towards them. I think I find this so hard because I am so used to looking the way I am. It's like a comfort thing. However, even now I think my goals are still a little unrealistic so I need to tweak them a little to be more attainable and within reach. I like the Streak idea. Some streaks I do better than others. I am not one who generally likes water...except on really hot days when I am outside and sweating. But I have drank at least 8 glasses every day since January 1, 2010. So, including today, I have managed to hold a record 28 days of drinking water. I am really proud of myself for this. In fact, if there are days where I drink anything else, I do not feel satisfied. My thirst is not quenched and I crave water. Not something I ever thought I would ever say. I really need to watch my nutrition more closely, as there are days I just do not cre what I eat. All this is doing is going back to my old ways. Why? Because maybe deep down I feel scared to lose this weight. I have not been below 180 for years. Right now I am around 220 (again). I don't gain weight because I am eating healthy and working out. I gain the weight because I eat things that are bad for me and make excuses ast o why I do not have time to exercise. Yes, I am in the middle of finals right now, but that should not be an excuse to just throw in everything I have already accomplished. Like Chris stated numerous times...it only takes 10 minutes a day to start transforming a new you. I can handle 10 minutes a day. Some days I might be able to handle more, but if not...at least I exercised for 10 minutes. This is a start, not a race. I have completed my vision goal (see other blog about that one). I have set goals, although I am going to readjust them now to make them more realistic. I have started some Spark Streaks I can be proud of. Now tyo just get my fitness and nutrition under better control and be more consistent and I will be rid of this weight...eventually. All good things come in time, right?