i keep wanting to eat "at " people
Thursday, January 28, 2010
last night i was telling my husband that i passed up a cadbury egg at the store and i told my mom i just found out they were out for valentines day and that she told me i should have one and he said no you shouldnt and i said i didnt but i am sure i will.and he said why? and it pissed me off so bad it was automatic i wanted to eat a whole bunch of crap to be like f you i will show you!! i know he just said that because he loves me, he goes you cry about your weight why would you do that?? i think i just need to reitterate that when i want help i will ask for it and that though i know it affects his life too when i am not happy he needs to let me go through this. it is so hard. i am so proud of myself for not emotional eating last night. i read this really good book too called food and loathing. it is a memoir about this woman with binge eating and really witty and funny. you gotta have a sense of humor about life you know?