i keep wanting to eat "at " people

Thursday, January 28, 2010

last night i was telling my husband that i passed up a cadbury egg at the store and i told my mom i just found out they were out for valentines day and that she told me i should have one and he said no you shouldnt and i said i didnt but i am sure i will.and he said why? and it pissed me off so bad it was automatic i wanted to eat a whole bunch of crap to be like f you i will show you!! i know he just said that because he loves me, he goes you cry about your weight why would you do that?? i think i just need to reitterate that when i want help i will ask for it and that though i know it affects his life too when i am not happy he needs to let me go through this. it is so hard. i am so proud of myself for not emotional eating last night. i read this really good book too called food and loathing. it is a memoir about this woman with binge eating and really witty and funny. you gotta have a sense of humor about life you know?
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    Look at the progress you've made so far. With EVERYTHING in your life. Ya gotta get a guy mentality when it comes to weight loss. You gotta learn to tune out those people when you know whats coming. We all know or have a feeling when someone is going to say something we don't want to hear. Gotta learn to block it and help ourselves, especially when we've done something we are proud of and don't want taken away from us!! ALWAYS ALWAYS keep in mind your end goal and all your mini goals and the progress you've made. Don't take that hard work and throw it away because you are upset. THAT is a GREAT time to exercise!! I get down and do push ups hard and fast til I can't anymore, or run in place really fast with knees up for a few!! Find what works for you!! Hugs for you!! Smile, you're beautiful!! And great job on not doing any emotional bingeing!! AWESOME!!
    3341 days ago
    I know what you mean about your husband. My husband & I went out to eat and all I wanted was a big fat burger. he bitched about me wanting a burger and why I didn't want a salad. I got so pissed off that I ended up eating the salad just to shut him up. It was the best salad I have ever had. Really it probably had more calories than the burger. What can I say I just want to punch him sometimes. They are really trying to help but yes they can really make you mad. Hang in there you will get through it.

    emoticon and if you need to punch him!!! LOL
    3341 days ago
  • SUGIRL06
    Sounds like a great book! Couldn't he have just said "well, just have one for the holiday". One is ok! I love the mini cadbury eggs. Yum. I wait every year for them to come out and then get a little individual serving pack. Everything in moderation!

    And I totally know what you mean about unwanted "help". My ex from a few years ago used to try to help by telling me not to do this or that and I am the same way. I do the opposite! Haha. Maybe suggest to your hubby to try to suggest alternatives instead of saying "no". (like only having one or having a healthy version of something) Like I said, moderation!
    3341 days ago
  • CAROLYN1213
    It is a control issue. We all want to feel like we are in control of as much of our life a possible and at the same time we refuse to allow other to control us. So, when you don't indulge in something that you know is not good for you . . . you feel proud that you exercised control. When someone else tells you what you should do (even if it is in your best interest) your rebellion and refusal to be controlled by others leads you to exercise what you can control , in this case, what goes in your face. Along with the actions are the thoughts "I'll show them, they can't tell me what to do" . This a form of self sabotage, one that I participated in for far too long.
    3341 days ago
    I am sure he is only trying to help! My husband does that too. I hate it when people tell me what to do! Good job on resisting the revenge binge!
    3341 days ago
    I call it revenge eating, I have done it before. But mostly I revenge smoke. People get on me for it, it makes me wanna do it more. It's hard to control. Every time we don't give into those thoughts, its a step forward.
    3341 days ago
    Life itself is good, enjoy it
    3341 days ago
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