Now about me and being MIA...
Since Christmas I've been taking care of Geri who is finally recovering from pneumonia.
Then, about a week ago while in a grocery store, I had a stress seizure (looked like a grand mal epileptic seizure), hitting my hard head on the way down - ouch. Apparently I turned blue and one of the customers performed CPR until the ambulance took me to the emergency room.
I've had a pretty good headache most of the week, feeling dizzy if I moved my head back too rapidly (better now than last week).
Despite my feeling tired, my insomnia still haunts me and my house has chosen not to straighten my messes up, leaving me overwhelmed.
What's a girl to do?
This girl is going back to basics. For me, basics include:
1) Stop bringing new stuff in; control my impulse buying.
If I don't bring new stuff in, I can begin to make headway managing what I already have.
2) Take care of any new mess or pile I make right away instead of giving in to the temptation to 'take care of it later'.
Too often 'later' never happens and suddenly I'll find myself on overwhelm.
3) Limit my distraction time (tv, computer, reading, hobbies, etc.).
Use those things as a reward after putting in my time taking care of myself and my surroundings.
4) Include some form of exercise (yoga, strength training, walking, or using one of the machines at the gym).
I need to improve my physical stamina so I increase my 'stay power' to do what I have to do.
5) And finally (and most importantly) I have to accept a few things:
If I let things go, my house is not going to magically take care of itself. (Darn!)
Sometimes I use taking care of Geri as an excuse to not take good care of myself. I convince myself I should do everything for Geri to make life easier for her. I tend to feel bad when I don't.
What I forget is that she deserves the dignity of being able to do as much for herself as possible while she can.
Part of helping Geri do what she needs to do involves me taking care of my responsibilities. It is hard for me to accept this.
Every single day, I HAVE to schedule time to take care of myself and my surroundings. Then I have to accept that I have to do more than just schedule the time. I have to actually follow through and begin. What a concept!
The last and most important thing I have to accept is that I feel better when I am taking care of myself and of business and that it's okay to feel good about myself.
The bottom line for me is letting go of magical thinking and moving into action.
This should have been a blog, but it's here now in front of God and everyone. Oh, joy! LOL
Now I have a strategy and some goals. The next step is to live up to them. Wish me perseverance!