Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Today I am starting fresh. I have struggled the past few years. My marriage has struggled and our financial situation could have put me in the grave early. Its been rough and I will not say I would want to do it again. I am coming from it with experience my life and my husband. We are starting over. We still have jobs and we have our air in our lungs. we are still struggling financially but who doesn't. My weight has crept up well not crept it has blown over and I am sick about it. I hate the weight and how it makes me feel with my surroundings and my constant struggle to live. I have been searching for a something and I don't know what it is or where I will find it but I am going to take it a step at a time. I know my life will not be perfect and I will never be a size 2 but I need to be a healthy size for my bmi to below a safe level so I can be here for my children. I will struggle and I will fail but its what I do with the failure/struggle.