My Life Turned Upside Down
Saturday, January 16, 2010
I can't remember the last time I logged on to Spark, but I think it's time to return. Unfortunately, I have gained 20 pounds since my lowest weight a year ago. I never thought I would be someone who would lose weight only to gain it again. I really thought I was doing things the "right" way so that it would be a lifestyle change instead of a quick fix. Well, I've experienced a lifestyle change alright - just not the one I anticipated.
Last summer, my husband and I found out we would be moving across the country. It was a positive, exciting change, but it still turned my life upside down. Our last couple of months in our old city were chaos. I was packing, trying to sell our house, working at my old job until the final days, and saying goodbyes to family and friends. In the midst of all of that, I was looking for an apartment and job in our new city, and trying to plan for the future. Even though it was an exciting time, there was a lot going on at once. My workouts fell by the wayside and my eating habits slowly deteriorated.
After an emotional goodbye, we set off for our new city. We lived in a hotel suite for the first month while we looked for an apartment. Living in the hotel wasn't so bad, but it totally destroyed any vestiges of healthy habits that I'd had. We were provided free breakfasts at the hotel, which we fully enjoyed. After a month of eating fatty hotel breakfasts and lots of takeout, I had gained at least 5 pounds, probably closer to ten.
Meanwhile, I was looking for a job and searching for an apartment. I was lucky to find both an apartment and a job fairly quickly, but it was still another month or two before I began to feel settled. In the interim, we were just trying to do the best we could to deal with all of the changes with grace. I think we handled it pretty well, but my eating habits definitely took a turn for the worse. Although we now had a kitchen in which to cook healthy meals, we were both working full time and adjusting to longer hours and longer commutes. By the time I got home at night, all I wanted was a glass of wine (or three) and a big bowl of pasta. I didn't monitor my portions - I just ate whatever I wanted. And exercise? What is that?! I didn't realize how much I had come to rely on my workout buddies that I'd had in my former home. Without a workout buddy to help motivate me, I have virtually given up on my exercise routine.
So...six months later I'm 20 pounds heavier. I have known for a while that I needed to get back on track, but after seeing pictures of myself from a recent wedding, I realized just how much I have gained. I think it actually looks like more than 20 pounds because I have lost a lot of my muscle tone as well.
I realize that I can't just bounce right back into my former good habits. It is going to take a lot of work to get back to where I was before. My goal is to focus on my eating habits, then slowly add in more exercise. Eventually, I'd like to get back to the 130 mark and run another half marathon this summer.
Wish me luck.