All these excuses
Friday, January 15, 2010
I am so frustrated with myself. I keep starting, falling off the wagon, and coming up with excuses why. Our convalidation last weekend with subsequent dinner-out. DH's birthday on Wednesday. A package my dad is sending over with oodles of chocolate, cheese, smoked chicken and other goodies. There are always excuses. There are always reasons not to follow through. Why can't I buck up and just do the work? What is it that makes me cave every single time? I think my motivation is severely lacking, and I can't seem to get it back.
I thought the Wii Fit would be an excellent motivational tool as well as a convenient way to work out indoors. Instead I am dreading that nasty little voice that goes "ooh!" every time I get on the balance board. I hate the fact that every time I complete one of those little tests, it tells me:"Oh... this, that or the other doesn't seem to be your strong suit." And I hate the fact that I let an electronic toy influence my mindset to the point where I don't get on it anymore because I don't want to feel judged. How absurd is that?
I'm not in a good place right now, and I don't know how to change my way of thinking. Mother Mary, I could use some help here, please?