I've been gone for so long
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I just looked at the last time I blogged - NOV 14. I didn't realize I had been gone for so long. I have been trying to get back on track and found it to be a struggle. I hadn't gone back to my old habit completely (I wasn't eating tombstone frozen pizzas and frozen burritos every night), but I felt I was getting close. I still made healthy choices - lean cuisine, fruit, water over pop, etc, but not enough. I was talking to a coworker 2 days ago, however, and she told me when we were both cashiering on Friday, she looked at me and wondered "Where did she go?". She is amazed at my weight loss so far. This made me realize that I can do this...I have done this. So I think now I am back for awhile anyway.
I also realized that while I was "gone" I was in more of a depressed mood. My manic phase was definitely gone. I am really not in either right now, which could be why I am teatering on the brink of motivation or no motivation. Manic phases can be so productive for me now that I recognize them for what they are and can control my impulsive behaviors because of it.
I guess I am just glad to be here again. My sister asked for the web site also, so hopefully she will be sparking with me soon. It will be nice to have a partner.