If you would have said to me 4 yrs ago I would be 237lbs lighter today I would not have believed you. Through many set backs many injuries and many plateaus Im 65lbs away from my goal weight. All I can do is Praise the Lord for his faithfulness the last time I was in the 100's I was 18yrs old and that was 30yrs ago. I am so overjoyed, overwhelmed and so thankful to the Lord for what he has done for me. The Lord has shown me that if we trust him and take him at his word he will help us and strengthen us and give us our hearts desires. When I think back to when I first started at 430lbs I thought there is no way I can do this its too much weight to lose. I said to myself I have to lose almost 300lbs its impossible. I prayed and cried out to the Lord and expressed everything that was on my heart concerning my weight and the Lord spoke to my heart and said:
Matthew 19:26 "With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible."
I cried so hard after reading that and my heart was shaking I said Lord I want to believe you so bad but I have failed so many times and because of that I am afraid to believe then the Lord spoke to me again and said to me:
" Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them."
Once again with huge tears in my eyes after I read this verse I said ok Lord Im going to take you at your word and I am going to believe you because your word says that you are not a man that you should lie (Numbers 23:19). I put my trust in you I am ready to do it your way. The Lord gently took me in his arms and held me so tight I felt his peace come over me like a soft ocean wave. He took away all my fears, all my sorrows, and all my pains of rejection and the jokes that I had endured from others for being severely obese. He let me cry in his arms for as long as I needed to and he let me know through his word just how special I was in his eyes.
What an AWESOME SAVIOR he is, what he has taught me in these last 4 1/2yrs I would gladly do all over again for he has taught me to love myself to have self control, how to overcome temptations, to have hope and mostly to have patience with myself and with my weight loss. This experience that the Lord has brought me through has changed me from within. Im not the same person I was 4 1/2yrs ago and I give him all the Glory and Praise for how he has changed me. I feel more confident, mature and secure with who I am, I have learned to like who I am through this process. The Lord taught me patience through his word.
“Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let patience do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way”.
"And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience,hope."
"That ye be not slothful, but followers of them who through faith and patience inherit the promises.
This last verse hit me between the eyes "be not slothful" I said to the Lord thank you for disciplining me and for your instructions. I will not be slothful because you are not slothful you are keeping your end of the bargain and Im going to keep my end of the bargain by working hard and learning to eat right I thank you so much for your promises that are mine to inherit. That just made me jump out of my skin Gods word is so incredible everything you need is in his word. I know that I would not be here if it were not for the Lord no one can tell me different. The Lord showed me he is faithful to us that we can trust his word if we just surrender our lives over to him and be obedient and do his word that he can do such amazing things in our lives Im living proof of it.
I have a brand new life, Im living a dream come true and a life that I thought was impossible but Jesus; my Jesus there are no words only tears of joy, tears of gratefulness and thankfulness to the one who saved me from a life of obesity. Thank you my Jesus I surrender everything to you for you are my life not for what you do for me but for who you are there is no one like you Lord. Its all about Jesus.