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A first for everything...Crying during spin class?

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

What I didn't get a chance to say in the vblog is that I began crying during class. As I was struggling to even sit my very large po (german word for buttocks) on that tiny little bike seat, and it hurt. I hurt. I felt weak. I saw what looked like professional trainers for the Hood to Coast of the Seattle to Portland bike ride in the class. All I could do is fight for myself - to imagine being better than I am. I have the right. I own the pleasures of life too. They aren't reserved for the fit and firm - I am the fit and firm - if I keep peddling. I whispered a thankful prayer that the lights were out and that it was perfectly ok to grunt. I had never blown my nose on my own sleeve before tonight but I did that too - so I could breath. And the breath felt sooo free - !

I got a chance to thank the teacher for being there. I was so grateful for her and for sparkpeople who are always pushing us to try new things. At the beginning i was too scared of my ability to stand and pedal but by the end, I was right there with them. Certainly not as hard of resistance, but I was pedaling. And I finished the class. ANd I told her that I was DONE being fat - and got a little emotional and she said, well, it's a new year's resolution and i said, no. I had a breakthrough during the class and she said "you felt the strength to continue!" and I said, yep. She got it and that made it even more powerful for me.

Find the strength. Be thankful for spinning instructors who kick your butt, friends whoh keep you accountable and remember who you really are.

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    You are completely and utterly AWESOME!! Girl, you just go!!

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    3019 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/12/2010 9:50:35 PM
    Wow! THAT IS AWESOME! I love how you said you have the strength to continue. Own it, baby! Way to go on the spin class and thanks for being an inspiration! CONGRATULATIONS!
    3019 days ago
    You did it!!! Way to go. Pushing through the class is just one of many successes we'll all be reading about soon. Happy Pedaling!

    PS: I cry, too, when I'm pushing myself to new limits when running. It's wonderful to know we have the strength to accomplish our goals. emoticon
    3019 days ago
    Your post really touched my heart! I am so proud of you!

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    3019 days ago
    You just made my day. Thank you so much for sharing with us. It is amazing what we can do when we set our mind to it. I cannot wait to hear about the next class. : ) Best of luck! emoticon
    3019 days ago
    Hey Sharon, you know what? I know you can do it! AWESOME JOB!! Keep it up, one day at a time, step by step you will reach your goal!! HURRAH! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3019 days ago
    Sharon, the thing is, you are tougher than you know. I think about all you have survived in your life and I think that you don't realize your own capabilities. If you want something, anything, you have everything it takes to go get it!!

    You rock. emoticon
    3019 days ago
    I just had my first spin class yesterday also. Wow those seats are a pain in the po. Way to keep it going.
    3019 days ago
    Sharon, I am so proud of you. What an amazing break through. Yes, you will succeed. There is no doubt in my mind. I'm so looking forward to the day that you make goal. Keep going girl .. You're beautiful now and on your way to being a role model for so many. Patti
    3019 days ago
    Way to go!!! You are such a motivator. Keep it up!
    3019 days ago
  • AQUA61
    I think that is awesome ...great job..my friend and I teach water aerobics..about 3-4 months ago I was scared to go to fitness floor but now am training & am seeing I too can do it..I did take spinning (not really my thing) but I was scared also..keep it up..u can do it. Two friends who believe in u...u go girl... emoticon
    3019 days ago
    Great job. I am so proud that you found your inner strength
    3019 days ago
    You sure can do it, Sharon. Great job at the gym. Spinning is one of my favorite things and I hope you know that you can always show up and do whatever level of intensity, for whatever amount of time that you want.

    Keep posting Vlogs, I look forward to seeing more!

    Have a great week,
    3020 days ago
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