A severe talk with myself today. Self-examination way overdue!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Hi recent found friends. I have changed my name from Eattoomuch11 to SparklingDawn
I had this most strange experience today. I stumbled over a blog, that first triggered the following response, and later when driving to work created some severe self-realisation and self-examination (and a serious reprimand to myself as well!):
I have learned that what I ask for - I get! Anything created by humans on this planet is because somebody thought it up, and decided to create it afterwards. Cars, chairs, clothes - everything. Everything starts with an idea in the brain, and sometimes it is manifested in the physical world as well. But it all starts in the brain. We get what we ask for. Now ideas is about getting a visual picture, so tell me .... how does the brain visualise "NOT"?
Close your eyes now and think of the elephant NOT riding a bike. Do it now - you can continue reading afterwards. Just take a little break and think of the elephant ...... I will wait until you are done....... OK are you done? Fine, now close your eyes and think of a giraffe NOT going on waterskiis dragged by a swarm of bees on an orange ocean with a silver balloon tied to its tail....... Hmmm - what do you see?
Now go back to your blog above and look at it again.
You write: I am not a pig, I do not shovel food into my mouth without thinking, I do not eat continuously, all day long. My mouth is closed to food except at timed intervals, I do not eat without thinking first, I do not eat at my office desk, I do not consume massive quantities of food, no matter how "healthy" the food is, I do not eat in response to emotions, I do not eat in response to fatigue......
What about changing that to:
"I always think before eating"
"I only eat what is healthy"
"When I am tired I rest, because that is what my body needs"
"When I feel anxious I evaluate why I feel this way, and decide what I can do about it"
"When I am hungry, I start by drinking 2 glasses of water while I prepare my healthy food. I eat a small portion of he healthy food I have prepared, and I drink 2 glasses of water. I wait for 20 minutes and IF I am more hungry I repeat the drill"
"Whenever I eat I sit at my special eating place, I eat slowly and I taste the food and enjoy and cherish every bite"
"I stop before I am full"
"I know there is more food, I can go and take it when I need it"
"I only eat for hunger"
"When I am bored or angry I address the boredom or my anger"
The universe is wisely created. We always get what we ask for.
Now – that is where I ended my blog – and went driving to work in my car – when it suddenly occurred to me that SOMEHOW the name “eattoomuch” was definitely describing the problem I struggle with (…..well … eat AND drink to be honest!), but also because it focuses on where I am and not where I want to be and who I want to be – might, juuuuust MIGHT not be the most sensible thing to do – right? OCR ! (ofcourseright)
I am a Director, I manage people, and I believe in “walking the talk” every day in my life together with my employees.
And then this name ---- hmmm - not too clever I would say. I mean I have known, preached and believed for many years what I wrote as a response to that blog – and then on top of that, I walk directly out in the middle of it all, both feet, waist deep into the trap, with no hesitation at all. I must really need a brain surgery or something along that line.
So when driving this morning, the sun broke through the clouds and it was the most beautiful sparkling dawn.
And I decided that 2010 definitely should be my dawn. The last year I am ever going to struggle with my weight – because when I reach my goal – this time – I am gonna stay at it.
As I understood the other day in some of the comments – somehow by changing my name I am in danger of loosing you people. So please find me again – Please?