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i dont want to... but I will Pray!

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

I dont want to be sick any more

I dont want to get any more bad news in regards to my health

I dont want to take any more medicine, any more tests, and I dont want to add any more doctors to my dwiddling list { I have kicked two or three of them to curb in the past year or so - I dont want to start adding them again now}

I had a few more tests done today - I refuse to give in, I refuse to give up - but in my heart I feel despair. I dont know why God chose my body to be a vessel of sickness, but I gladly stand before Him seeking the good that is to come about because of it.

Right now, I just need His arms around me. In my inner being, I dont know if I can take ONE more disease or illness. I dont know if I can take one more step towards the medical community and expect health. I do believe God's word - I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. I believe His word of - by His stripes I am healed. and We walk by faith and not by sight. I beleive that God loves me and that I am His own. I know that in my life I have done things that did not promote health - some within my control and others not so much. I have been making changes for years; so my inner being is asking WHY??? My spiritual being - says BRING IT ON. Lets get to it and lets get over it already!

Lord God only You know the why, only You know the path that I must travel. I pray for health and healing for my body Lord God. I pray for restoration of my body for Your glory. I pray for your healing touch and loving breath to breath upon me. In Jesus Name. Amen.

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  • BIGDAD1211
    You are in my prayers Jeanla and you are doing the right thing by bringing all your cares to the Lord. Remember , this is just for a season.
    In Jesus Name
    3024 days ago
    I join you in faith, believing for God's touch upon your health. I know that no matter what illnesses result from this generation's toxic society, from our own damage to our bodies, from the enemy's attempts at destruction, our spirits are created in the image of God and in that place we are able to rise above even the most difficult of circumstances. It is in that place that I pray for the peace and joy of our Beloved to fill you to overflowing.


    3025 days ago
    What a positive, strong person you are, I am amazed!
    3025 days ago
    Psalm 22:24
    For he has not despised or disdainedthe suffering of the afflicted one;he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help.

    He is there my friend and He hears your cry.

    3026 days ago
  • JUST4ME927
    Have you ever considered the health care field as your mission field? Put your eyes on Jesus, and see those you come into contact the way HE does. Just trust in The Lord with ALL your heart. Praying for you!
    3026 days ago
  • JESSICA_0029
    You are always in my thoughts and prayers. You are such a strong person I admire your courageousness. I will be saying extra prayers for you.
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    3026 days ago
    Your post touched me deeply, and made me grateful for my own good health. I pray for your health, and for you to have the strength to face whatever comes your way. emoticon
    3026 days ago
  • DAS92687
    You are in my prayers tonight, too, that God will hold you close and heal you both body, mind, and spirit.

    3026 days ago
  • LINDA25427
    I was born with health problems and it's been one thing after another people that are close to me don't know how my body holds up and I'm able to do the things I do. I get teary eyed when I think all God has brought me through and all I know I will go through before he calls me home .I'm thankful everyday that he has giving me since that night that the doctors said I wouldn't make it through the night . My immune system is week and I catch bactera easy .But to me that is part of living .If I didn't know how it felt to be sick I wouldn't know how good it feels when I'm not.
    3026 days ago
    Jeanla, my heart goes out to you. God will hold you close. He never fails us.
    3026 days ago
    3026 days ago
    I feel exactly as you do, especially now that this cold has settled in. I, too, am tired of doctor visits and medicines but I know they each are getting something under control. As the weight comes off, perhaps some of these problems will go away. Let's hang in there together and look to tomorrow as a better day. -- Lou
    3026 days ago
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