I've been Naughty, now I must be Nice!!
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Okay, on my last post I admitted I'd been lazy. I tried to change my ways....but there were so many challenges...so many excuses...I think the biggest hurdle was coping with severe sleep deprivation with the newborn. He's slept through the night 2 nights now, I'm hopeful. I'm beginning to feel human again. Sleep deprivation is really tough at 51. It's been 10 weeks. That's a huge sleep debt. I gained back 10 pounds! I hit 200! I never thought I'd see that number again. I've been lifting weights this morning, trying to get back into the groove. The 200 scared me, this weight gain is different than any other I've ever had, it was quick and loose/soft/fatty. I'm usually pretty dense - I've never been soft like this. This is my first real weight gain since my hystectomy a few years ago, I'm wondering if the hormonal change affected the way I can gain weight. I always thought I didn't look as big as most 5'2" 200# women did. With this kind of fat I do! Maybe I actually lost muscle. I've been more sedentary that I have in a long time - I've just been exhausted and I'm carrying this darling 13# bit 'o life (baby) around everywhere....so I don't go far. He's had back to back pneumonia's and has needed extra cuddling,. Personally I like the Bali tradition of them not touching the Earth before 6 months...although it's not that practical without a real tribe to support the effort.