My Fat Blanket

Monday, January 04, 2010

Spending time looking at articles, reading blogs and posts of others here on Spark People gives you alot of information to look at and think about.

In the last 1 1/2 years I have learned alot about myself but occasionally I am still surprised. In the last couple of weeks I have been nervous and sabotaging myself. Stupid - yes but I can't seem to stop myself.

Yesterday I realized that my obesity is somehow comfortable (like a big fluffy fat blanket). I know how it feels and have learned to deal with it. If I continue to succeed I have to learn a whole new set of circumstances and possibilities. My Fat Blanket has gotten thinner and just not as comfortable. I know logically I don't need the blanket and with determination I can get past this Fat Blanket hurdle I have thrown in my way.
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    I have come to think of my layers of fat as my "cloak of invisiblity" and sometimes I love being invisible because I feel safe and comfortable, and at other times I hate it because I feel ignored and unimportant.
    I've just come back to Spark People after falling off the weightloss wagon, but I'm not quitting!

    3792 days ago
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    Be encouraged and take comfort in the fact that you are not alone. As a Christian I somehow believed that being overweight helped me live a more godly life. If nothing else I wouldn't date so I was safe in that aspect (read between the lines). However, I've learned to not only love who I am, but who I am becoming as well. Be blessed and be encouraged. Keep writing your way through this it well help.
    3797 days ago
    Yes, I, too, suffer from the Fat Blanket Syndrome. Actually, in my case, my big belly reminds of being pregnant. I lost my first baby boy over 20 years ago, but when I hold my belly, I am comforted by thinking of him. There is a lot of pain and anger underneath that fat.
    3798 days ago
    I know EXACTLY what you mean! I actually wrote a jounal entry about it (not on Spark) about how I was scared to lose weight. I don't know who Thin Violet is, only Fat Violet. I didn't even want to meet Thin Violet for fear of not liking her. But I will say that once I left go of that fear, the pounds started coming off. Almost like i had subconsciously KEPT the weight on even thoguh I was working out, etc.

    You can do it! I believe!!
    3799 days ago
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