This is the year that I'm actually going to accomplish what I set out to do. I am 1/2 way to my goal of losing 100 pounds. I am proud of what I 've accomplished but I don't want to do it 1/2 way. I could get by with what I've already attained but then I would be quitting before I finish. again. I NEED to finish this. I really want to look in the mirror and be proud of the woman looking back at me. I want to have my children proud of me as well,
I got a bit freaked out the other day. One of the cable channels (I think discovery health) aired a commercial showing Eric (I think) from the Biggest Loser and how he gained all of his weight back. I work out with this guy like 3 times a week on the Biggest Loser video on On Demand. He lost 215 pounds! If he gained it back who do I think I am anyway?!?
I've thought about it for the past 2 days and I've come to the conclusion that his setback will not affect my success. I know that I cannot go back to the "old me". Its taken months of ups and downs to realize that. I suppose that when you are on the Biggest Loser Ranch and all you have to do is focus on weight loss, the success comes without paying the price of living in the real world.
I've changed over the past 7 months. I've slipped up but got back in the saddle. I've been tempted every day as I drive by the McDonald's at the entrance to my neighborhood. I've dragged myself out of bed to do my workout videos before everyone gets up in the morning. I've eaten salads every day so I can save my carbs for dinner. And on and on.
There's things that I now KNOW about myself and my journey that I didn't KNOW back in May:
I KNOW that I cannot eat McDonalds and lose weight.
I KNOW that eating out, regardless of where, really does a number on my food intake. Unless there's a special occassion its just not worth it any more.
I KNOW that I need to exercise 5-6 days a week in order to feel good and lose weight.
I KNOW that I don't really like high intensity workouts but I have to do them anyway.
I KNOW that watching mindless TV really undermines my weightloss goals. Too much time goes by too quickly with nothing being accomplished.
I KNOW that I need to get to bed at a decent hour for 2 reasons:
1. to get a good sleep so that my metabolism stays on track
2. to avoid my late night snacking that KILLS my weight loss program
I KNOW that I need to get in my 5 fruits and veggies a day no matter what.
I KNOW that if I don't drink 8 glasses of water a day- it affects my weight loss
I KNOW that tracking my food and exercise everyday keeps me accountable better than anything else.
I KNOW that Sparking daily keeps me motivated and lets me know I am not alone in my journey.
I KNOW that when I start skipping my Spark it really means that I don't want to really know how I am doing because I know I'm not doing well on my plan.
I KNOW that I like to be held accountable and I like competition so that Team Challenges are really good motivators for me. Funny that I'll do things for the challenge and not just for my health?!?
I KNOW that I can finish this journey and that I can be successful!