Trying to get past the pain

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Well it's a new year. There is not really anything new to me except I've moved 200 miles from home. I am trying to move past the pain of a 41 yr. marriage ending in divorce. I'm frightened at the thought of starting over, and wondering how I'm going to make ends meet. Right now, I'm working on a business plan for a catering business that caters to two-four people at a time in their home or whatever romantic place they choose. It's called Two You, With Love. My other choices were Party of Two and Table For Two. In the mean time I'm cleaning houses and taking care of my horses. I haven't ridden for awhile. They are both still spooky about their new home.
I've started back on my food and exercise plan and know that I will achieve my goals.
The hardest part is the loneliness. Especially at night. And I just have a hard time doing things and going places by myself. It is just awkward. I know that I will get through this, it's just I don't know when. Maybe it's like getting older one day you were 16 and then you turn around and you're 58 and you wonder when did THAT happen.
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    Hey Little Buddy! Great names for the catering company and what an awesome idea. Wish you were closer it is such a cool idea! I even think it would make a great wedding gift. Things are going to get easier and then you will look back and think... heck, I made it and can't imagine why I thought it was rough... look how good I am doing now! I know you and I know you will succeed, you have the patience and perseverance, who else would have the time and fore thought to do the tea bag thing! Love you my dear friend.
    3064 days ago
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    You can do it, stay strong and focus on the good things that are happening in your life now.
    Try to go out by yourself, go to a movie, do something you like to do for yourself. It is going to be hard for a long time but you will overcome.
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    3064 days ago
    Hang in there.
    It has to be quite overwheming after being married so long. I can only imagine.
    Keep reaching out and keep working on your goals.
    And have faith that God is looking out for you and he will meet all your needs.
    3066 days ago
    Take care of the business stuff and your critters, but remember to take care of YOU, too. And try very hard NOT to stay home just because you don't have someone to go with. If you are in a church situation, see if there's someone whose company you enjoy. Get involved in a volunteer capacity as you have time. Reach out, and keep yourself busy and active.

    {hugs} I know this isn't an easy time, but you've already done the first, hard steps. Keep on keepin' on, and you'll have it. :)

    3066 days ago
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