Friday, January 01, 2010

Hello Spark Friends!! I am over joyed to have made it to 2010!!! I have done some reflecting on my life over the last 10 years and I have come to the conclusion that I am NOT a failure. Although I am overweight, I am also intelligent, independent, kind hearted, giving and a GREAT human being. When the year ends and a new one begins, we have the opprotunity to rewrite history. I am planning to have a happy ending in 2010. So instead of doing what I have always done, which is just talk about it-I am going to live it!!! One step, one meal, one challenge at a time. And this time it wont be for a class reunion, or for the girl who called me fat in 8th grade, or the guy who told me I would be even more beautiful if I lost 100lbs...This time its not for my mom who desperately wants to lose weight and be healthy. This time its not because I want a boyfriend or the attention of men in general. This time is for ME! I want it so bad and I can see the finish line ahead of me. I can see the 12 chapters of my 2010 story. Today 1/1/10 I start with getting to the grocery store and filling my cabinets with the proper foods to get me where I need to be. It starts with me accepting that I have a serious addiction to food and a stronger desire to CHANGE. Today I admit that I am weak and easily influenced by unhealthy food. I admit that when I have a bad day Doritos make me feel better. I admit that I have Chinese on speed dial when I dont want to cook. I admit that I am not in control of my life because I have allowed food to dictate my life. But guess what? Now that I am openly confess that I need help, I can openly receive help. So for the month of January its all about setting the platform for the rest of my year. I am going to finally allow God to help me through this. I am going to pray for him to give me the strength to say NO when my friends want to eat late at night. The strength to order healthy foods when I dine out and the courage to stay grounded. I love me so much and I want to live to have healthy children and ride bikes, run, jump and play with them. I want so much more than I have right now and I deserve to have it. I am the only person that can do the footwork so my time is NOW! I will not have another unsuccessful year. I can't...its simply not an option. So with all that I have said...lets begin the road to recovery...
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    Thanks for your comment! Sounds like you are on the right track! SBD is a great way to lose weight the first couple of weeks are kinda difficult but we can do it!

    I love the wii fit and I am wanting to get the wii fit plus :) If you have a wii I know that any of the wii sport games that come with it like bowling are a great cardio workout!

    If you need friend support I'm here! Congrats on taking control of your life I know we can both reach our goals! :)
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