Here comes the jackpot question in advance...what are you doing New Year's Eve?
Thursday, December 31, 2009
So....here I sit, in my dark bedroom...after having slept through and watched a few hours worth of "Numb3rs" (one of my favorite tv shows). My mom's cat kept me company for the majority of the time, which has been nice...
And as boring as all that sounds, there is a reason I've been able to sleep all afternoon. I ended up coming home early due to light-headedness, dizzy spells, and just plain exhaustion. I was in a funk earlier today as well, but I'm pretty much chalking that up to having been from lack of sleep and not feeling well because I feel much better now.
At any rate...because I haven't been doing so hot today, I've deicded to forgo the New Year's Eve festivities and will be spending the time curled up on the couch with a good book or watching a movie/TV show marathon. I haven't decided which yet.
And for the most part, I'm okay with it. I mean, it's lonely and kinda makes me sad that the only one celebrating New Year's with me physically will be the cat (who will most likely be in hiding among the village beneath the Christmas tree) but, I'm actually okay with the idea of ringing in 2010 on my own.
Besides, I know I'm not really alone--all kinds of people will be celebrating with me in spirit, even if they can't be physically present with me. :)
The main reason I think I'm okay with celebrating the New Year on my own is I get to start it however I want. I've fallen (again) into the trap of trying to do what pleases others rather doing what is best for myself. And I think choosing to spend tonight alone (yes, I am still not 100%, but I think I could handle going out) is kind of symbolic of how I need ot make decisions that are better for myself--simply because choosing to be better towards myself will enable me to offer my best to others.
That's something I learned and lost sight of over the last year. In order to be the best I can be and to be there for others in the way I would like to, I need to change my priorities. So, I'm trying to put myself and some of my needs first (like the need for an appropriate amount of sleep or exercising). And then letting everything else fall into place (as I know it is bound to do).
I started this on a small scale this fall, reading a book called "The Passion of Jesus Christ" by John Piper. Each week I pick a chapter (they're only 2 pages long) and read that chapter each night before bed. Then, I've been reading a small passage from the Bible each night as well. It has been amazing to see the insight God has given me into some passages that I normally would have just glossed over.
As those habits have developed, though, I've started feeling the need to do something more to take care of myself. And this meant taking care of some physical needs. It's funny, and I'm a little embarrassed to be putting this out here, but it's funny how something so simple as washing your face each morning and each night can make you feel 10 times better.
The next step?
Blogging. I know that in order to help with my emotional well-being (and for the sake of others around me, lol), I need to be journaling on a regular basis. So, as I said in my post last night, I'm going to strive to do so either on here or on my LiveJournal account. What I'd really like to do is have some prompts to follow. But, I'm not really sure how to go about finding prompts. I loved when there was this website called "FridayFive.org". Each Friday they would post 5 questions to answer (they were usually pretty simple) and you could use those as prompts to blog about. If you happen to know of any good sites with great prompts, please pass that along. I'd definitely be interested. I know the Spark book is supposed to have some, as well as some on the Spark book site and I look forward to using them once my book arrives. :)
Getting my healthy lifestyle back in order. Beginning tomorrow, I will start using the nutrition tracker here. For the first couple days, I'm going to eat how I've been eating (just to get myself honest) and then I'm going to go back to measuring out the right portion sizes and getting on track nutrition-wise.
Monday, I hope to get up early and start going to water aerobics again. This means that come Sunday night, I will need to have my gym bag packed and my clothes for Monday laid out, ready to go so that I don't have any excuses.
Tuesday I'm thinking that I'll be doing some circuit training at the gym and I'd love to go on the walk my team is doing that evening, but I'm not sure I'll be able to because I'll be babysitting and arranging to get the kid and bring him to the mall is going to be a bit of feat--it means facing ALL of Hanford traffic at its height. But, I will do my best!
Wednesday, water aerobics again...Thursday, probably circuit training...Friday, water aerobics again...not sure about the weekend--I can do water aerobics on Saturday and take a break on Sunday, but I'd like to leave it flexible for the time being.
And of course, starting Monday--the New Year challenge that is being put on by SparkPeople. That will be a good motivator for now!
I will be tracking not only online, but I'll be using my SparkPeople calendar (whenever it decides to arrive). That is one tool that I found really helped me last year.
Oh, in my year in review--I totally forgot to post that one of the few habits that I've managed to stick with (for the most part) is making sure that I'm drinking enough water each day. It's gotten to the point where I can tell that I haven't had enough and it wears on me.
Speaking of which, I'm going to go hunt down my bottle, maybe some dinner, my book, and find a cozy corner of the couch to curl up in.
Happy New Year, everyone!
[EDITED TO ADD:] Here was the verse of the day at BibleGateway.com I thought it highly appropriate for the start of the new year: “This is what the LORD says— he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” ~ Isaiah 43:16,18-19