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New Year, Same Old Attitude?

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

In an effort to cure my "I don't give a f*ck about losing weight" attitude, I started reading some of my old blogs. I figured that since I had done really well on here, reading what I had written about being motivated and all of the things I'd accomplished would help rekindle my fire.
I was shocked by the first four months of my blogs-all I did was post about countless splurges on peanut butter bars, burritos, pizza…I'd eaten enough to feed a third world country.
It occured to me that instead of blogging that I ate half a pan of brownies, I should have been blogging about what was bothering me, what upset me, what was triggering me to want to eat.
So, that's now one of my 2010 goals-to blog about emotions, stress and problems instead of eating to cope with them.

I'm struggling. I'm reaching out for help, as I did several months ago. Many of your kind words helped me get motivated last time, and I need that again.
I am falling apart. I have "slightly elevated" cholesterol and blood pressure levels for the first time ever, knee pain, foot pain, starting to get a little back pain…I need to commit myself and focus on being healthier and more active, and I just can't seem to make myself care.
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  • VHALKYRIE
    Journaling is an eye opener, isn't it? You're still here, and you're still trying. That is such a hard thing to do. Your revelation is a huge step forward. Keep moving!
    3985 days ago
  • LADYROSE
    For me, my big eye opener re-reading old blogs to see where my attitude was... I saw patterns I wouldn't have recognized any other way, and it was what I needed to get me moving.

    Like what the other ladies said - baby steps. start small, slow, keep steady. Celebrate sucesses!

    You may also want to look into books like "Body Clutter" or "The Beck Diet Solution"... both great at helping you identify what's /really/ going on... it's never about the food, it's about why the food holds power over you instead of you reclaiming that power.

    {{hugs}} you can do it! I believe in you!!!
    3985 days ago
  • TELERIE
    Blogging is so helpful to see where we ARE and where we USED TO be. It sounds as if you are ready on a whole new level to make some changes in your life. Take one step, a small babystep. Then another. You can do it. We're here!
    3985 days ago
  • MY_AGREEMENT
    If you didn't care, you wouldn't be blogging about it. :-)

    Looking back in my own life, times when I said "I don't care" I often meant, "I feel helpless and overwhelmed and it hurts too much to focus on that right now." Once I found ways to feel in control of my intake and my body, I suddenly cared - very much.

    So that's my one, teensy little suggestion to you as you cross that invisible line into the new year: find one area in which you can gain control of your health. Maybe it's walking 10 minutes a day. Maybe it's substituting water for one soda a day. Maybe it's eating at least one veggie with dinner every day. Whatever it is, blog about it. Document your successes; see them add up. And then blog about how that makes you feel. I do think blogging about feelings is super-important, but don't focus only on the negative ones. When you're down on yourself, successes fade and only the failures stand out. Give yourself a record so that you don't forget that you CAN succeed. You CAN gain control. Those little successes add up to healthy habits that grow into big successes, one day at a time. You can do this! --Marsha
    3991 days ago
  • KIZIDOG
    It is always good to blog about your feelings, that is what got us in this shape to begin with. We ate instead of dealing. I'm glad that you realized it, now you can do better in 2010. Good luck to you. emoticon
    3991 days ago
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