New Year, Same Old Attitude?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
In an effort to cure my "I don't give a f*ck about losing weight" attitude, I started reading some of my old blogs. I figured that since I had done really well on here, reading what I had written about being motivated and all of the things I'd accomplished would help rekindle my fire.
I was shocked by the first four months of my blogs-all I did was post about countless splurges on peanut butter bars, burritos, pizza…I'd eaten enough to feed a third world country.
It occured to me that instead of blogging that I ate half a pan of brownies, I should have been blogging about what was bothering me, what upset me, what was triggering me to want to eat.
So, that's now one of my 2010 goals-to blog about emotions, stress and problems instead of eating to cope with them.
I'm struggling. I'm reaching out for help, as I did several months ago. Many of your kind words helped me get motivated last time, and I need that again.
I am falling apart. I have "slightly elevated" cholesterol and blood pressure levels for the first time ever, knee pain, foot pain, starting to get a little back pain…I need to commit myself and focus on being healthier and more active, and I just can't seem to make myself care.